Me in this way. The way i drive crazy for, how is it possible to dont smile you back? In this your smile i see our parallel world around us, and i feel your closeness, here by my side, and eachtime i surprise myself, how i feel your scent in the air. And now it’s a different one, but i know it’s you, that are thinking a little of me, and our parallel world says it us. In this way, how you are looking at me, you make thrills me. When i write, my fingers shaking. It’s my heart beats like a crazy and i cant stop what i feeling. It’s so that i would like meet you. You smiles at me in this way and each feelings we feel as if explode around, while we look at eachother, already knowing, what is happening inside of us.
You let me know, you’re still on the other side of the planet, and i smile, cause all my feelings were right.
Tonight, in some ways, i’ve feel you close to me, but a little bit far. My vise is always in me. But in these hours it’s more light. But however i can loose myself in your eyes and to see our parallel world… how it is strange, our connect. Now that i begin to thinking to you, here you are. And my need to close my eyes and take deep breath has became a necessity. And my emotions becomes yours. I feel your closeness gets stronger and stronger. Your closeness is almost tangible. You arrrive always from behind, while im writing in this open diary. I close my eyes and i feel you turn my chair and you stand me up, while you look at me with your wonderful eyes. We dont say nothing, while our lights floating among us. Your eyes has the power to transport me in a world of new sensations, and i need to caress your face mentioning you a whisper that you stop me, with your finger. A tear falling from my face. All this overwhelm me. I put your hand on my chest ‘Do you feel it?’ i whisper you. It’s my heart exploding.
In this bedroom, i waiting for the magic realize. Slowly i whisper your name. I waiting for something is reaches to you. I close my eyes, taking a deep breathe, looking me around. Hoping something reaching to me. I looking at you, waiting for you. And something slowly it coming. My vise, slowly growing fast. I close my eyes again, and suddendly, i feel your closeness. Despite our distance, we are approaching one of another. I feel your hand on my shoulder, while i’m writing in this diary. You turn around me. You kneel in front of me. And right after we stand up, and we are in front one of another. You look at me with your glance that make it me blush, and i look down, but you whisper me ‘Look at me’. And in that glance we enter together in our parallel world. I touch on your chest trough your shirt. In that touch, our lights begins to floating among us, and our emotions get bigger. Little whispers, they leave us breathless, speechless. You take my face in your hands, your fingers caress my skin, i thrills. I remain without oxygen. Closing my eyes, you approaching me, and sweetly kissing. I take you hand and i put it on my heart. It beating like a crazy one. You do the same. Slowly you let me make slide my hand in your shirt that slowly falls down on the floor, and you remain in front of me, in this way, speechless while you look at me, caressing my face and i dive myself in your eyes, where i can feel every emotions, feelings when you are with me, in this way. In front one of another, leaving all what we feeling arounding us.
You let me know you’re still in Australia. When i look at you and what i feel is right, i cant believe it. It make me feel good, you make me feel good. I cant believe is happening among us. You dont know me, neither, but it is so. I knew you was doing something and you have let me know it. Our connection was so stronger than ever. And still now i feel you close to me. You turn around me. When i woke myself i felt you embrace me so softly. I never had these sensantions, then you let me know what you did. Is our connection has passed another level? I really dont know, but if it is so, dont surprising myself anymore. And now what i feel is your closeness, despite our distance. What i would like say to you is ‘how much i miss you, despite i feel you close to me.’ What i would do is just to look at your eyes, in this way, in silence and hear our breath, and maybe touch you so sweetly. I can feel your smell in the air. If i close my eyes, i can still feel your arms that around me. Our connection is one the most beautiful feeling i ever had in this last period, and it is becoming the most beautiful i have ever have in my life, and i have it with you. I dont ask for anything better.
To look at you in this way. I need to touch you softly. I need you take my hand to your chest, i need to feel your heart trough your shirt, and i need to dive myself in our parallel world, in this way, so kindly, with you that look at me with your sweet eyes, and i need to hear from your deep voice, that you feeling the same im feel. This strange bond that unites us. I close my eyes and suddendly we are in front one of another, and without we realizing it, we entering in our parallel world. There our mind get connect more strong. There, our energy flow is like a stormy river. Our lights melting. We standing in front. Our senses expanding. I feel your heartbeat get faster. I take a deep breath to dont lose my senses. That’s how i feel when i feel you close to me. I close my eyes and my hands on your chest, slowly you let them slide it in your shirt, and i remain breathless. Each our little movement is a big emotion, inside of our bodies, but above all inside our minds. We feel each little vibes, each rustle of our clothes. Everything we feel, expands each our sense. When you take my hand to your heart, it’s like your heart was exploded. My heart is doing the same. When we touch us, each our senses, explodes. When we look at us, what which we feel is like a twirl of emotions, and what we feel is what we seeing in our eyes, one in another. And we see it, only us. Nobody else’ can’t. Our hearts are like two bombs that exploding at the same time.
Looking at you, for a second, in this way. Let me make understand what man i have in front of me. Dont say anything. Just in this way. I must still understand it. I have need to embrace you so tight, and feeling you close to me. I knew your sensibility was one of the greatest, and maybe that’s why i feel you so close to me, and our minds get connecting eachother so easily. But what i seen tonight, it was magnificient.
Let me admire you.
Everytime i begin to write here, i write what i feeling, what we feeling when we are in our parallel world. What our energy flows say us. But tonight i was remain speechless. Your little gesture left me breathless.
I knew how big your heart was. How big your soul was. What i feeling for you growing eachday it pass. I respect you a lot. My feelings for you goes beyond love, and, by now, you know it very well.
One day, if we will meet us, i will tell you my whole story.
But now, let me looking at you in this way. Let me caress your face. Let me touch sweetly your lips and let me whisper you ‘How much i really would like to stay with you, in this moment’. Also only be embraced by you, to feel your breath in your chest. To feel your heart beating. To see our souls melting, to watch to ours lights dancing around us.
Here to write you for hours and hours about what im feeling when on my mind begins ours flow, when our connection link us, despite we are far. When our parallel world wants us close. I close my eyes and i feel you presence. My vise in my stomach is always here. It doesnt leave me. And what i feeling is always more strong eachday it pass. You stay here by my side, and how i feel you. What i feel when i looking at you, in your eyes is, something it goes beyond everything. In these days what i wrote has flowing without problems. My emotions guided me. What i feeling in these hours is one most greatest feeling i have had in my life. And aint love, it’s something goes beyond. I feel my dancing butterflies dance their own dance, it something sorround it. But the love aint love. It’s just our connection, and our connection is something more strong than love. I feel you here, next to me. You fill my soul, and what i feel it’s something marvellous. If i close my eyes the only person i see, and you’re the only person i really need in this period. I dont need nobody else’s. I only need of you and of your sensibility.
I would stay also here in silence, looking at us in our eyes, taking us ours hands. Also this it would be enough for me. You and me together, in this way. Feel what we feeling for us. In this way, eyes in eyes. in silence.
to all has happened few hours ago, i’m still surprise. But if it’s this what we must to have, so be it. Ours parellel world connect us in this way, and for sure isnt the first time. I wanted another proof, and that’s it. I smiling, and im sure you do the same over there, wherever you’re. From now, eachtime it will happens, im sure our minds will connect eachother. When i’ll feel you around me there will be a reasonable reason. Ours parellel world want it. And we will not us stop this flow of energy among us, for sure. We will see us trought ours souls. We will feeling us in ours minds and we will see ours light dance in the air, like a twirl. Ours lights will melting eachother, and what we will feel will be ours deepest thoughts. We will communicate in this way, till the day we will meet us for real. In someway, i’m feeling you also now, close to me. If i stop myself to write and i begin to think to all that, i cant hold back some tears. If i close my eyes i see you here by my side, you whispering me ‘It’s all alright’. A tear falling. You overwhelming me. Your presence overwhelms me. I feel you here, how is it possible, we never met us, and neither you knows me (maybe a little, yes, but just a little).
Maybe we know us better than we imagine, without knowing it.
I close my eyes and i take a deep breath i can see you looking at me in this way but i dont need of it. It’s from today that i feeling you close to me. I feel you looking at me and what i feeling is just ours parellel world welcome us. I know you want to say me something and i’ve noticed it from little things. You know with me yours secrets are in safe. I’ll wait for. I’ll be by your side, when you will be ready to say me what you want to say me. In meanwhile, we are here. You stay stand with your white shirt untied, and you look at me in this way. I breathless, i feel you take my hands and my fingers playing with the shirt. We begins a glance game and a slow moves game. You take your necktie and you put it on my neck. I blushing myself. Right after, slowly, you approaching me to your face. I have still my hands on your chest. Ours eyes meet themselves, after few istants your lips are kindly on mine.
What you try to say me is in your kiss, i feel it.
If i close my eyes i feel your smell. It drives me crazy. Your shirt, slowly falls down over your arms. That rustle. I watch you, knowing you must say me something, you makes literally drives me crazy. We make love.
I whispering your name, and slowly i close my eyes. I feel you coming to me. I feel yours soul sorrounding me like a white veil. I feel your presence by my side. I still have my eyes closed. You next to me, whisper me ‘Open them’. Slowly i open my eyes, and slowly i see you in front of me, looking at me with the eyes i love. Your presence overwhelms me. It take us to ours parellel world and there your eyes, your glance, makes me feel breathless and what you say make feel speechless ‘How did you had take to long to come to me’. Breathless you take my face in your hands and so slowly your face approaches to mine. Kindly your lips lay on mine in a soft kiss. I close my eyes. I feel yours hands on my face caressing it. Gently i take your hands in mine. Ours souls melting. Everything arounds us become a moltitude of colors. Ours eyes meet themselve and we cant break away from ours glances. I smell your skin. You look at me with your own way and you know i drive crazy for it. And the only thing i can do is to bend myself to yours desires that to the end are also mine. We stay together, in this way, embraced, kissing us, touching on ours skin, looking at us, and just sometimes we whispers us little things we know just us.