To calm ourselves. It seen, we still didnt understand completly what was happened around us. Or we didnt wanted understand it, because we had understand everything, and while we have continued to stare the stones, i have noticed you blushed, as if you wanted hide me something
I have touched your leg, whispering ‘What’s up?’.
Slowly, you have started to talk, staring the second stone constantely. ‘I have told you, that i didnt sleep this night, because i wanted observe you, isnt?’. Rembembering this, i was blushed too. You have continued, taking sweetly my hand ‘While i’ve observed you sleeping, i have understand i didnt want lose you. The time i have spent with you, in these hours, it has been the more intense and deepest i had in my life.’ You have saying all this, as dazed by Ansuz, but you wasnt. You was understanding, that our emotions, what we had felt, our actions were reflected on the stones.
‘…and this is brought me to take something for you, when i came out, and isnt the stuff i’ve told you, when we were upstairs.’
I was listening to you, almost speechless and breathless. More breathless than speechless but i was in equal way, stunned, ’cause you was talking so sincerely, and you was “the guy i wrote about” in my poems, since when our glance met, in that bar for the first time.”
Always, as leave me without the breath. Dont, cause to your look, but how you whisper my name and i feel you here close to me. And how you whisper it, behind me, while i close my eyes, i feel your voice ‘Do you feel it?’. While you turn me, in front of you, i looking at your eyes and touching your lips, i whispering ‘Our parallel world…’ In front of us, one to another, in of it, we look at us, while our hands touch our bodies. Your hands on my hips, and mine on your shirt. Slowly, i play my game, and you let make me do. You close your eyes and i see your desires overwhelm mine. For a while, we look at us immensely, then right right after, the shirt falls down over your arms. We stay so. My hands on your bare chest and our breath at unison. In these istants we are as suspended, and the only things we can feel are our greatest emotions floating around us.
Was exploding when your eyes were placed on that sheet, where i wrote that poem about you. You have read few words and suddenly you have raised your glance toward to me, while i was breathless and i was looking at you. Around us the people was talking, but it was as if we were been transportated in an other place. The other people seemed like ghosts who walked trough that bar looking for something they would never found. The only real persons we were us. We were arounded by something like a mystical aura. It seemed that it wanted protected us. I was look at you while you was reading the poem, and in meanwhile, my heart leaded a fleet of emotions, ready to fight.
Slowly you have placed your hand on mine that it was on my leg. In that moment i’ve thought to escape… run away as faster as possible. I wasnt able to resist one more moment, but how i would could? I was there, with the most sweet guy i had ever met in my life, and he was reads one of my poem. I was look at him. He seemed completly dive himself, in what i wrote. And really he was.
Ocasionally you raised your eyes and you have launch some sweet glance to me. That reading seemed has no end. It seemed, as if you, want absorb each words that i’ve wrote.
Your handshake seemed more stronger to the end of the reading. Slowly, you have placed the sheet in the middle of my open diary, that it would be closed as soon the sheet was left by you. After a suspended moment, where our thoughts met themselves, our glances met too. You was seemed speechless. I was more than you. You didnt ever have asked me who was the main character of that poem. You knew it already. Your hand still holded mine. And you eyes were on me. I felt myself die inside. Your hand was so sweet on mine.”
“For (5th part)
Close my eyes and i can feel you start to wake up yourself, and in some way, your thoughts were been toward to me. My head and my stomach are going crazy and our connection is begin. What i feel in these moments is a twirl of emotions that around us, despite our distance. Our parallel world is inside of us and we both of us we feel it. I close my eyes and i feel your embrace, your sweet embrace. When you turn me, your glance looks at me and our bodies touch. My hand place itself on your chest and with all your sweetness you place yours on mine and you have whispered me ‘Do you feel my heart?’. It beats so fast. We didnt take off our look, one from another. Just few second and my eyes placed on you t-shirt. You slowly, have take my hand, and you have slide it inside. I have look at you, breathless. Right after, you have take my face in your hand, and you have whispered me ‘How much i wanted you.’ Slowly, you have approached yourself to my lips and kindly you have kissed me passionately.
“You have stand up yourself. I was look at you, asking myself many things. While our glance didnt take off one from another. We were captured by something magic. You was came where i was sit and with an infinite sweetness, you have asked me ‘Can i sit by your side?’ You have smiled me in your own way, that i have felt myself melt. Without say nothing, i have shifted myself a little bit.
That table was only an obstacle, by now. And now, we have need to stay close. Thou, we were still in that phase in which you say to yourself ‘ I could but…’.
Slowly, as if you have fear to scare me, you have sit next to me.
Nobody, before than you, have had sit at that table with me. You have started to look at me so deeply, that without realizing, i’ve became all red. My heart has began to beat as a train. My own fear, was you could hear it. But we were so hypnotized by ourselves that each thing, out of our feelings, it was unnecessary.
With your deep voice, you have asked me ‘Can i read something that you have wrote’, looking at my diary, but above all that sheets that you have collected from the floor. I was choosing something, but you have stopped me, taking gently my hand. You have indicated that poem. In that moment i’ve thought to explode. But how i could resist to your eyes, your glance on me.
I’ve gave you that sheets, while my in my head million of thought ran. But, by now, your hand have take it and in few moments your eyes would have read what i’ve wrote. I was exploding. A rapid glance to me, a shy smile then your eyes on what i have wrote about you. “
My heart (4th part)
A coincidence. No at all. This it’s called connection. Yesterday i’ve felt something that today you would be come to see this my open diary, and you did it. How is it possible that our connect is so strong till to this point. You looking at me in silence, and my vise get bigger and bigger. I feel you close to me, despite our distance. I feel you by my side, i feel you are embrace me, slowly. I need to close my eyes and i must take a deep breath. Our flows get connect eachother so fast, that my head is exploding and my heart is beating like a crazy one. What which i see in to my amethyst ball is our parallel world turns and it want says us something, that we know already. From a dream from which was born, our connect get bigger and bigger. And now it enough, we know what the other will do. This still scare me a little. Since when i was a child i have had this perception. But i never thought to have it with you. Im a reasonable person, but this it goes beyond the reasonable things. Now i must think that our parallel world is something real, and all this that is happening among us is something it goes beyond. I want believe, since when i’ve had that dream, that something, that i’ve called parallel world, has made click in our minds and we didnt realizing it. Does we have the same sensibility? I know you have great soul, and heart… but are we connect till this point?
And slowly you feel my recall. I close my eyes and stretch my body foward and in some ways i feel your hands take me and hold me tight. I lose myself in your eyes, while, slowly, you slide my body on your, to the floor. I dont waste time, and when my lips are in front one of another, i kiss them. That kiss, makes us fly. Our lights begins to floats around and our parallel world welcome us in of it. You didnt take off eyes from me, and i feel that sensations, despite our real distance. In some ways, i’ve had know you’ve started to study your theatrical script. I imagine you while you read it. Something says me, something take you to me. Our bond is strong also when you’re working. In some ways, though, i feel you a little, but very little, far. My vise is always present. Despite our real distance, so far, our parallel world makes us feel close one of another, since when this strange bond has began. ‘Do you know how much i need you in this moment of my life?’ I’m sure you know it, and you let me know it trough your feeling you are able to make me feel them.
What i feel, is the same you’re feel too. Since when i woke myself, since i have feel you have embrace me, i have the sensation, that you are here with me. I feel, you still embrace me, and ours skin still touching. You from behind and i feeling your arms arounds me, while you whispering me all your desires, moving my hair and kiss sweetly my neck. I close my eyes, while you turn me and finally we are in front one of another, while our lights floating around us. We seems flying, but it’s only our perception. Slowly, we enter in our parallel world. We must to take a deep breath and in this breath we feel us so close more than ever. Our scents mixing up themselves. I feel yours and you feel mine. We standing in front, we dont move. Just waiting for that the other one, make the first move. We look at one in another. Each of us knows what would to do. You look at me, waiting for. I put my hand close to you. And rightafter, your silky white shirt takes flight and my hands touches your chest till arrives to your hips, while our bodies approach, without we realizing it. We didnt take off our eyes one from another. And our sensations expands. I’ve designed a variable map on your body, and you have caressed my face till to know each my neo. I remain hypnotized by your glance on me. For an instant we remain in this way. But right after, we look at us one of another till our lips touches themselves, in little touches, without to kiss us really, and we drives crazy for it.
And this glance, every time, you make me feel alive and, in some ways, i know your smile is the reason of all this. I see you smile and i see our parallel world opens. And when i feel your closeness, it’s because with your eyes you seeing what im writing and what im feel.
I whispering your name in this moment, and what which i feel is, that you’ve feel it. You’re look at up to the sky, and wherever you are, you are whispering my name. Our connect begins. We must to close our eyes to feel us eachother close one of another. Our parallel world has embraced us, and we must to take a deep breath to dont drive crazy for what we feeling in this istant. Me in this bedroom and you on the other side of the planet, but so close as if we was in the same place. My heart begins get beat faster. So fast that it seems stops. And i feel you here by my side, and you start to touch me softly. I whisper ‘Stop, i want to see you’. You are behind me. Slowly, you turn me, and what which i see in your eyes, is all i’ve wish in my life. A man who loves me for which as i’m, without ask nothing, but only accept all what is happening among us. Our connect, our feelings and hope that our parallel world continues for long time, despite we dont still know eachother, but that in someways we knows eachother better than anyone else.
How i feel you close to me in this moment.
A deep breath and in the air i can feel the same freshness i have feel the other day. And you have this white shirt on. And i feel you embrace me from behind. The freshness of the air, in someways, drives me crazy. You know it. And slowly, you turn me in front of you. We look at us in our eyes, entering in our parallel world. You bring my hand to your chest, and slowly you slide my hand into your shirt. I touch softly your bare chest and i feel your heart beats like a crazy. All around us it transforms. Our lights floating among us. You mentioning me a shy smile, while you kindly touch my face and you whisper me ‘Do it’, as if you was breathless. I remain speechless, fixing my hands that sliding slowly in your shirt. Without add further things, your shirt falls downs over your arms to stay there, while you hold me tight. This combination, drives me crazy. And you know it good. These rustles, your glances, our floating lights, my emotions, this air we can feel around us, leaves me breath and make me beats my heart fast. Slowly, you approach me. You whisper me ‘We stay in this way, for all time we wish’. I look at you in your eyes, saying nothing, while i touch your shirt on your arms. We look at us one in another, listening to our breath gets faster. Our feeling going drives crazy. And the only thing you can do is kiss me. In this exact moment what we feeling for one of another, disappear with us, in our world.