Im feel like

longjohn_contrario_moltiplikcaMy Long John Silver.
Another little operation at the leg, to remove the three pins i have inside my right leg.
I have a tangle in my stomach. I would like cry but i must be strong like Long John.
I sighing and i go foward like you.
It had to be done, from long time and now the time is arrived.
I will face up to my 10th leg operation with you in my heart and im sure i will feel your closeness while i will wake up myself from the operation as the last time.
When i’ve opened my eyes the first person in my mind was been you.
I feel, you are feeling me, cause in these moments im feeling you, and the vise in my stomach is changed, perahps you have read my tweet (who knows).
Now i feel your closeness growing up more than ever.
I feel you’re wrapping me.
That’s incredibile how’s our connection works.
Now i feel you so close to me, you’re next by my side. I can feel you’re whispering my name, and now i dont think about the operation, but just to you.
You have pulled me in our parallel world and now everything is disappeared.
We are just only us, embraced one another.
You dont how much you’re important in these moments of my life.


“You was still

ap24forteLooking at me, surprised of how many things i knew. Me i was also. But what we didnt know was that we had still little time to spend in our parallel world, and the Markùt with their big eyes and their runs around us, wanted warned ourselves that was time to leave. They were worried, i could felt and with their little paws and their strange voices they took us at the gate from we where entered.
We had to overcome again that thin line where we had felt our breathe make itself short. We had to overcome the Nothing, once again.
We had hold our hands and we had took a deep breathe. For a last time we have turned ourselves round and we had saluted the Markùt.
In a second later, we were going trought the gate to return beyond the rusty gate.
Hand in hand we were entered in our appartment, with many questions in our heads.
But slowly the replies were came with no any effort.
In meanwhile, we were reasoning, we were a little bit hungry.
You went in the kitchen and you have prepared something.
One and only reason was in our minds. The most rational.
I have waited for you, to talk… to explain why the Markùt were worried, and why they had pushed us out from the Parallel World.
‘If we were remained there for too long time, everything it would be imploded and we, together with all of we have created till now. ‘
‘Everything would been destroyed’ you have whispered, looking at me.
‘Like the Cinderella enchantement’  and i have added witout realizing that i was saying aloud ‘…and we would been killed by what which we had thought was the most beautiful thing of the world. Our feelings’.
You have left fall the glass you had in your hand and you ran toward to me and you have took my face in your hands and you whispered ‘We will dont ever happen’
We have sighed. I kissed your palm of the hand.”


⇐“While you have

I rembember

owen141_forteAs if was yesterday how it’s began our strange connection, and slowly was growed up, always more, each day. And now we are at this point.
It’s began with little signals, then that dream and what you have told me. I didnt wanted believe it, but i did some research, and everything was real.
Now it’s passed an year and i feel your closeness more stronger than before.
Sometime i sigh, because i still dont believe it’s happening for real.
Slowly we have etablished a contact, despite our real distance. If i talk about that to someone, for sure, they can think i’m crazy, but im not crazy. I feel there is something.
I open myself freely just with you, trought this diary, if ever you will read it you would know im telling my very deep feeling i have for you.
And if i rembember how it has began all this i can shake my head, and everything is still continue.
I must take a deep breathe to calm my heart that is beating like a crazy.


From two

luke-10forteDays i feeling my vise in the stomach get bigger and bigger.
I feel our parallel world wants us inside of it. I feel your hands stretching toward me and you pulling me inside with you.
These sensations arounding me, and in someways, i feel, they reaching from you. Our minds are connecting in strong way.
The vise is more tangled than ever. Our little eletric shocks, are more present in these hours. I can feel your whisper my name from far. Each  time you pronouncing my name i have a thud in my heart, and you know it.
I can feel your embrace. Your arms wrapping me and everything i can do is, close my eyes and take a deep breathe.
My heart is going crazy.
You need me as i need of you. The only thing is, close the eyes and stretch our hands. Only in this way, we can touch ourselves despite our distance…
My vise in stomach  is about to explode.
Tell me you feel the same i feeling.


“While you have

boogaloo_forte0041Lay me on the meadow you didnt take me off your eyes on me. Seemed you knew in which dimension we would been dived. You have putted yourself above me.
For magic our clothes, one by one, was fade away. And our love was becoming an experience never felt before.
You was entered in me so sweetly but your moves were firm and determineted. Slowly my hands putted on your lower back. You was kissing me with all your sweetness but at the same time i could felt all your passion. Our tongues have met uninterruptedly during we have made love, and your lower back game, made me moaning of pleasure.
You have kissed me sweetly. Your hair covered my face. I moved them, caressing your face. Our glance met themselves, but your lips wanted still kiss me and i’ve whispered your name.
I wanted this moment had no end. Seemed we were in heaven, but instead we were in a place better than paradise. We were in our parallel world.
You have approached your face to me and you have started again to give me little and soft kisses.
We were wrapped in our passion, when were about to reach the peak of our pleasure and we had felt the little pulsations exploding in us at the same time.
When we have had felt the contractions no more, we were looked at us, one in another and we smiled ourselves.
Slowly and gently you was came out from me, making me bite my lips still one more time. You have looked at me and in a whisper you have said my name.
Around us was a peaceful sensation that little by little was entered in us, making us feel strange, as if we were floating, but we werent float.
After we have done love, everything seemed more beautiful. We could heard the birds sings around us and some strange kind of little white furry animals approached us. They were sweet with us. They wanted our attentions. With their behavior, they told us that they were love us.
When i touched one of them i whispered ‘They’re Markùt… the parallel world guardians, they came to salute us’.
How did i know whom they were and their name? I was became a witch few hours earlier and  i’ve assimilated also this in my transformation.
You have looked at me deeply, you have sighed. You have whispered my name.
We were in the place where we would wanted live forever, but unconciously we had know, wasnt possible. We had to return in our appartment.”



⇐“We had to

“You was still ⇒

It’s from

michealrWhen i was woke up myself that i feel you in an intimate way, close to me. I have already in my mind the continue of my tale.
In these hours, between what im feeling and my imagination, our parallel world is wide open and i see you inside of it, and my heart is beating like a crazy.
Our closesness is tangible in these hours. We only, us can feel it, we can feel our touches. I can feel your hands touching me softly and you know i could, also faint.
Your whispers around me and the only thing i can do is leaving me transport in our parallel only with your words.
Our minds are get connecting ourselves in such strong way, that i can hear your deep voice, despite our real distance.
Closing my eyes i feel you.
My hands are shaking on this keyboards. Our connection is strong, we can feel it.
I must take a deep breathe. I feel your embrace.
You’re here by my side.
I love you


“We had to

murders_forteOnly overcome the rusty gate and we would we would make the first steps in our world.
We were looked at us one another. We had hold our hands tight one in another. Our heartds beated so hard and we could felt them. We were still breathless, but we had know if we didnt would make these steps, our breath would been always more short.
Was useless to find a reason, it was so, and we knew it.
We didnt realized that we werent still inside of our parallel world, but we were looking it trought a temporal window. And the reason we were breathless, was that we were in the middle of the NOTHING, and the rusty gate was became the borderline between our appartament and our parallel world, and that thin line that divided us from our world, was a line very dangerous. We would have understand it later. We looked at us deeply
, and with those glance we had done the first step that it would made us enter in our parallel world.
We entered in, as if we were entered in a water bubble and we were came out, entering in our parallel world.
We had realized, we had no shoes no more, and we were walking in a meadow arounded by trees as a little alleyway and then was opened itself in front of us the big valley that we had seeing from our appartement.
We were looking at us speechless, we didnt believed it. It was a wonder.
There was everything we had always wished. Silence, blue sky, little animals that ran arounded us, the big meadow where, in the past life, we meeting ourselves to stay in peace. We went there. We felt it, was an enchanted place.
Me, by now, a witch, i could  felt all the magical flows and now i understood because we went there. Me from the past, i’ve done a enchantment and this place was hided to the eyes of the other people, and we could stay here everytime we wanted.
Slowly you putted yourself in front of me, without say  nothing, but you have stared me.
Gently you have holded my hips, you have approached me to you. For a little seconds you have looked at me and right after you have started to give me little soft kisses.
Softly you have lay me down on the meadow and sweetly we have started to make love.”


⇐“I was stand up

“While you have ⇒

When i see

insta17-01-2020This picture, isnt the the Bones & Skull glass i see. But the shack in background. Each time i see it, i have a thud in my heart. It’s incredible how your lastest pics/videos you did, they filmed that shack, and how each time i see it, im shocked myself. Cause  i been in that shack, despite never been in your house.
I rembember exactly each thing from that dream.
We were there.
You sang with your friends. I heard you, also sing, for real, time later, and you sing very well, and everything coincides perfectly, and if i think to all this, i can also drive crazy, you can bet it. And i asking myself if  everything this is part of our parallel world or not. I think yes. Everything is part of it, and we are realizing all this slowly, but it’s so.
Slowly we are approaching ourselves and it will arrive the time, without realizing that, we will collide ourselves, and at the end our glances will meet themselves and the only thing, we could do, will to smile whispering our names.


“I was stand up

luke26forteFrom your knees. You have took my hand to better help me and  i have holded it and i have whispered you ‘Come’.
You have looked at me with your eyes. You knew what i would do, but you didnt say nothing, you have only followed me.
Hands in hands, we stopped ourselves in front a little bowl where you had the keys of our appartment and with a sweet glance i have looked at them. You have took them. In front of the grey door, we stopped ourselves, for a minute. We looked at us, one another.
While you have inserted the key in the keyhole, we have took a deep breathe and we didnt take off our glances, one from another. We sighed hard. Were we ready to make this step? We didnt knew it. We would had discover it, only crossing the borderline.
Our hearts were about to drive crazy, and would explode at any time, if we didnt would open that door.  We would stared that heavy grey door for several minutes.
You was looking at me, while you was turning the key and when we have saw that the door slowly was opening, we had took a final deep breathe and we have opened definitely the door and we came out.
We been pushed out, as if a magnet attracted us to it. The building where was o
ur appartament, was remained the same, but now the other appartments didnt exisited no more. The rusty gate was there. We were there, in front of it. As always was closed.
You said me, smiling  ‘ I will would fight to open it’. On the contrary, when you have inserted the other key, the gate opened itself  easily
We were had to overcome still, that invisible bordeline that it didved ourselves from that magic world that we were observing standing, from that rusty gate.
We holded our hands tight, looking in front of us. We were breatheless.”


⇐“What we were

“We had to ⇒

This afternoon

smiles_forte3How i felt you close to me, inside of me. You was close to me, you holded my hand when i was at the medical office to make the x-ray to my leg.
My vise on the stomach has growed up suddenly, and i knew was you.
And also now, im back at home writing here, i feeling you close to me.
I take a deep breathe and i can see your shadow around me, i can hear you whisper my name, and me i whisper your name, and our parallel world open itself and, trought it, we can stretch our hands and we can touch ourselves, sweetly.
Our glances meeting themselves, and slowly we approaching ourselves one another, closing our eyes we can feel our lips leans eachother on ours mouth.
You’re the first. Your kisses leave me, always without the breathe.
Despite our real distance, i can feel your passion.
You are loving me sweetly.