Yes, but a little bit far from me. In some ways, i feel, you trying to say me you are with me. Our connection is continuos, our flows are always in connection. But sometimes it’s normal we cant feel us as we wish. But if i take a deep breath and i whisper, in someway, you can feel me.
Today i was thought to you, often, i’ve missed you, but i knew you was hidden yourself in some part of my heart, i’ve closed my eyes and i have felt your sweetest kiss, while i was on the pool, while i was take the sun. I have felt your embrace, from behind, and in that few seconds, i’ve closed my eyes you was by my side, caressing my skin. I’ve seen also, for little moment, your arms that embraced me. I’ve sighed.
If you was really, here with me, how many things i would say you. Things that nobody else can imagine. By now, i believe, i can say you, for sure, you know more things about me than others people that around me daily.
I really hope, one day, we could meet us, not only in our parallel world, where, by now, we feel our emotions explodes, despite our real distance.
Telling that ‘I love you’, it would be minimal. In these period, that it’s lasting from long time, you’re the only person that, i feel more close than others. You fill me and i feel myself alive, thank to you, that’s which i need. I need of you.
At me in this way, you know what you make me feel. Still this day when i’ve opened my eyes, when i was in bed, i’ve feel you that embraced me sweetly, and i have feel your bare chest against my back. If were so, each my days i would put on signature. And now, that im writing, i feel your scent around me. I close my eyes and i try to recreate the sensation i have felt. My heart exploding. I feel you here, by my side. Our emotions around me. And if i look at you, i feel you do the same. While your eyes says me what you want me to do. With some shyness, but with all my desire, i do it. And, by now, in that gesture our parallel world welcomes us with our lights floating around us. You no say any words, but i see all what you want to tell me You taking my face in your hand, i dive myself in your glance, touching sweetly your neo and your soft skin. We no need to say nothing, ’cause what we must to know we know it already. By now, what we want to tell us, it has been told from long time. But we living what we feeling as if it was the first time, and eachtime we surprise ourselves, about our connect and how we feel close one of another, also if we live so distant. What can i say to you, now only that i feel you so close to me and you’re here by my side and i feel these flow that come and go from you, i feel you.
again here. You around me. I feel you. You embracing me so tight. I feel your arms. You dont want leave me. I see you your glance on me, and my vise begins to be so strong, in my stomach. We enter in our parallel world without leaves us ours eyes on. I can feel your hand take mine, and your soul, so slowly enter in mine. Like making love, i feel you so close to me. I’ve missed this sensantion last night. But now you’re again by my side. I feel you all about you in me. Heart, soul, and above all your mind is toward to me. And in our world you are in front of me. Eyes in eyes, we stay in silence. The words are useless. Just few whispers. Whispers of desire to stay in this world forever. You and me. Alone. Where ours deepest thoughts can comes out freely. Where we can look at us and understand what we feel for eachother, in this way, with no add anything else. I close my eyes and i take a deep breath to dont drive crazy. I feel your hands on my face. Your whisper ‘Open your eyes, look at me’. Your eyes are the only thing i see. Unconditionally my finger begin to reach to your skin mole You let me do. To the end you take my finger in your hand and… slowly you slide it in you mouth. Speechless i blush. Biting my lips, you approach me and slowly our lips meets eachother in a kiss One of the more passionate we gave us eachother.
begining to call me, i feel you. But to be sincere i didnt stop to feel you close to me from before. You sorrounded me. But now im here in front of you, in front of this pc screen, and my mind is toward to you our connection is stronger. I looking at you. In these eyes i can see our parallel world and i see you stretch your arms to take mine to get in together. My breath make faster til i remain breathless watching to you. I must to close my eyes to dont drive crazy for what i feeling right now, i’m in front of you. Your glance into my eyes. You come closer to me. I can feel your breath too. I cant stop to look at you, my thoughts fly away. With no add any words, you understand everything. You taking my face in your hands. Face to face, we touch ours skin and for magic and so slowly, ours lips touch on eachother. A kiss soft like a veil. Ours lips barely touches. Little infinite kisses. Right after we look at us. My hand touches your face, it caress it, till reach your skin mole, and you do the same with mine. We stay in this way for a long moment. In front of us, what we feel and we see, are our lights melting. From ours bodies begins a lights dance that arounds us. What we feel is absolutely unique. Ours warm made by all ours feelings. An emotional twirl. A moltitude of colored feelings. And this continuos flow of energy trought ours minds. An exhange of emotional flows is what we feeling when we connect us.
Are you? I feel you, but a little far from me. What are you doing. I’m calling you. Slowly i see you running to me. But you’re too far. If i close my eyes i can smell your skin. I see you there. You stretching your arms to me. But something blocks you. Ours parellel world is close. Yours profume drives me crazy. I can see you, i whisper your name and i know you feel it. Our connection is stronger and i see you look at up the sky. Ours lights dancing. We both take a deep breath and our sensations makes bigger. We are approaching us, but slowly. Our connection is here, we feel it. We feel us. I close my eyes and just having them close, i’m in front of you and i can touch you on as i want. I put my hands on your chest and i feel your heart beats like mine.
Now our connection is more stronger. My vise makes stronger in my stomach and my dancing butterflies begins to dance their dance. A slow dance. Our parellel world still waiting for us… I take your hand but you cant to hold it. Where are you?
Right now it’s an amazing feeling. My dancing butterflies driving crazy and i cant stop to think about you. I know for sure you feel something like my feelings. From this night i feeling you closer than ever. And your soul embracing me. I feel it so. Its like a veil, but now this veil more warmer and i know it’s your soul and heart. I know your asking yourself some questions about me. Maybe you’ve read that post where i’ve talked about myself, maybe not. But i know what it does means what he has passing. With less suffering, i had face to many legs operations, since i was born.
My first leg operation was when i was 1 year of life. They broke my feet to straighten them. Then i have had other 8 legs operations. And consequently scars (big scars), years of physioteraphy, til then last big fall, where i broke my tibia (multifractures) one year ago due an epileptic seizure (im suffering of it). In emergency room, the only images i had on my mind were these of your LongJohn and i’ve had lived the same scene of yours. When the doctor said me ‘It must be operated’, the only image i had on my mind it was yours and my tears felt down from my face. Another leg operation, i just cant believed it.
Isnt the same that he has passing, but i know what it does means. All the pain. All the work of rehabilitation and above all will strenght to goes on… And you, in my case above all for the lastest leg operation, gave me such strenght and i never stop to thank you enough for this.
How i feel you by my side, despite i really dont know where you are. But i’m drive crazy, cause i feel you next to me. It’s from yesterday that i must to stop whatever i do, to write in this my open diary, at a different time i usually write to you. Describing what i feeling isnt easy. Yes, they are the same feelings i feel when i feel you close to me, but right now, they are more bigger and i know you feel the same. Ours connection make it bigger and bigger. I told you, something it has happening among us, i feel it, you feel it. My heart beats faster, im sure also yours beats like a crazy one. I dont know what has happening, but something really soon will happens. For the excitment, i bite my lips and i smile, thinking to you. Im sure, my 6th sense, says me, in these hours you had take a look at this open diary. I feel it, and i ever didnt hardly wrong. We are so close. Ours parellel world is here. I know it, you know it too. We know it. What you must to know about me is in this open diary. I’m sure you’ve read that post where i was talk about myself. And you felt something. You try to say something me from the other day. You know i’m here for you, wherever you are and whatever you do. You know what you must to do. I will feel you.
So close to me. When i feel you in this way i must let you know it. And the only way i know is this. Writing in this my open diary. Let you know how i feel but i’m sure you know it, beacause i’m sure you feel the same. I feel you by my side. Ours connections is so stronger. I dont need neither to take a long breath, if i close my eyes, i can see you in front of me. Your glance into my eyes, and i speechless. I feel your hands on me. And mine on your chest, trought this white shirt. You take my hand, in silence, you put it in. Slowly my hand slide into your chest. The shirt slowly falls down. We both speechless.. We close ours eyes and we right after we are in ours parellel world. I smell your skin and we look at us into ours eyes. Your whisper ‘I just needed of you’. I take your face, ‘When you need me, just you whisper my name, i will feel you’. That’s has happened. We feel us, despite ours distance. That’s how does works our connection.
I close my eyes and i feel you taking my hands, then my face. Face to face we look at us. A whisper ‘I need you… i want you close to me’. I feel inside something will happens real soon. Ours connection does works in this way. I will wait for it. You try to say me something. I will waiting for your signals. In meawhile you’re so close to me. Your glance drives me crazy, you know it. My heart beats faster, and im sure also yours. Whatever you do now, im sure yours thoughts are towards me, like mine and like two forces meets eachother, in the sky, our lights melting.
What you try to say me i will wait for it, and i will get it trought your signals you will send to me. I feel you next to me, so close.
I whispering your name, and slowly i close my eyes. I feel you coming to me. I feel yours soul sorrounding me like a white veil. I feel your presence by my side. I still have my eyes closed. You next to me, whisper me ‘Open them’. Slowly i open my eyes, and slowly i see you in front of me, looking at me with the eyes i love. Your presence overwhelms me. It take us to ours parellel world and there your eyes, your glance, makes me feel breathless and what you say make feel speechless ‘How did you had take to long to come to me’. Breathless you take my face in your hands and so slowly your face approaches to mine. Kindly your lips lay on mine in a soft kiss. I close my eyes. I feel yours hands on my face caressing it. Gently i take your hands in mine. Ours souls melting. Everything arounds us become a moltitude of colors. Ours eyes meet themselve and we cant break away from ours glances. I smell your skin. You look at me with your own way and you know i drive crazy for it. And the only thing i can do is to bend myself to yours desires that to the end are also mine. We stay together, in this way, embraced, kissing us, touching on ours skin, looking at us, and just sometimes we whispers us little things we know just us.