In my stomach and my vise were mixing up eachother and a little voice inside of me told me to check my open diary statistics. I just cant believe it. I was waiting for you within few days, and here you are. I cant explain what i’ve felt, but the sensations i had it was like a punch in my stomach, and once again you’ve overwhelm me. I’ve cant hold back tears. From yesterday i feel this strong emotion. To be honest it’s, by now, from a month or so, my feeling are growing faster and faster. And you dont leave me. Our parallel world will be, also, a my own creation, but how is it possibile that all that is happens. What i feel and what which is happens is it just a coincidence? If i close my eyes, and if i take the usual deep breath, i can feel you here, next to me, holding my hands. And you mentioning me your shy smile, looking at me. ‘You can believe to that’, is your whisper, while you sweetly, caress my face. My heart explode and our lights begins to float among us. You embrace me tight. ‘Dont leave me’ i whisper you, looking at your wonderful eyes. ‘I need you more than you can imagine’. You dont add further words, and you continuing to caress my face, till to approach your lips on mine. Your kiss is the softest kiss you have gave me. A tear falls.
You in eyes. Last night i have try to explain you when is began our connect and how i feel our connect. I ask you the same question: do you have feel the same emotions at the same period, when i have feel mine? And do you feel the same vise in your stomach when we begin our connect. If it was the same. If i had a little response from you. I would have the certain of our connect. Also a little sign, that i only i can understand. Because what i feel in this moment is very strong, and it’s coming from you. I feel you here, next to me. It’s like you are embracing me. I feel your closeness in this bedroom, i love it so much. Despite our distance, how is it possible i feel you next to me, but it is so. If i could have a little sign from you, i can have the certain about all that. About our parallel world that does real exists. Tell me you feel the same emotions inside of you, when all that happens. Let me know it.
Still sorrounding me, i cant hold back them. I must let coming them out. And what i’m feeling in this moment, it’s like a emotions storm. What i’m feeling is you around me, next to me. Our energies flow is continuos, and it doesnt wants stop. I feeling you here. I dont need to close my eyes. My vise in stomach growing up fast. I see you looking at me, and i’m sure, you want to say me something. I’m here, i feeling what are your feelings. They are like mine. They are battling to coming out, to reaching to me. I feeling something inside of me, since before. Our connection, ours parallel world is patently here. I feel it, you feeling the same. Ours minds are link with something bigger we cant explain neither to us. I feel you. And you feel me. We close feel to us in a way we never felt. You have something to say to me. You’re by my side, you looking at me, you touching my hands, i feel your closeness in this way. Your sweet smile. I feeling you embracing me. My feelings are becoming so big and want i really need is only you, here close to me. I looking at your eyes and what you want to say to me, it will be in a whisper and i will understand it.
Hold me now tight.
Here to write you for hours and hours about what im feeling when on my mind begins ours flow, when our connection link us, despite we are far. When our parallel world wants us close. I close my eyes and i feel you presence. My vise in my stomach is always here. It doesnt leave me. And what i feeling is always more strong eachday it pass. You stay here by my side, and how i feel you. What i feel when i looking at you, in your eyes is, something it goes beyond everything. In these days what i wrote has flowing without problems. My emotions guided me. What i feeling in these hours is one most greatest feeling i have had in my life. And aint love, it’s something goes beyond. I feel my dancing butterflies dance their own dance, it something sorround it. But the love aint love. It’s just our connection, and our connection is something more strong than love. I feel you here, next to me. You fill my soul, and what i feel it’s something marvellous. If i close my eyes the only person i see, and you’re the only person i really need in this period. I dont need nobody else’s. I only need of you and of your sensibility.
I would stay also here in silence, looking at us in our eyes, taking us ours hands. Also this it would be enough for me. You and me together, in this way. Feel what we feeling for us. In this way, eyes in eyes. in silence.
Caress, you was here, next to me, when i was on the couch. And you was here by my side and you’ve caress me. I felt you. And now you’re here. Looking at me with this your glance, almost lost. Lost in your thoughts. Lost, but so close to me. What do you think? Do you feel the same emotions i’m feelings right now. If i close my eyes i feel your breath make it slowly fast, and i can hear your whisper in my ear. You are behind me. I feel your hands hold my hips. I breathless, i smell you skin. Slowly i turn and i see your eyes. You metioning me a shy smile. ‘What do you feel?’ i whispering you. You looking at me in silence. You taking my hand on your chest. ‘The same you feeling’. Our glances sparkling and we enter in our parallel world.
What i feel when i feel connect with you is an inexplicable feeling. I feel our thin rope gets shorter always more, and eachtime i feel this sensantions, i think something special will happens between us. That thin rope, as i called it, maybe is our parallel world. And my emotions makes bigger and bigger eachtime i feel you so close to me. I never felt something like this till now. Then now that you let me know ‘you like what i wrote’ this feeling has grow up more. Yes i know, it’s a stupid thing, but what i feeling it’s true. What i began to feel last december and what has happened, aint just coincidence. What i feeling, you feel it the same, maybe in other way.
I still wondering myself about what i feeling when i feel you so close to me. I miss breath, and for real i must take a long a deep breath to dont remain breathless or speechless, when, in some way, you’re next to me. Like now. But in other way, i miss you. I know, this open diary, i opening my heart, my feelings, my emotions, to you, but, maybe it will reach one day, it will be not more enough. What i will do, that day. I really dont know. Maybe it will never reach. We will would meet us already, who know.
Tll that day, i will continue to write to you in this open diary.
Next to me, in this bedroom. Yes i feeling you. You by my side. Inside of me. I can hear your breath if i close my eyes, i can feel your hands that caressing mine. I see your glance just for me. Your eyes in mine. Your smile hugs my soul and i let you do it. Here where it has began all that. Ours connection.
I feel your soul close to me. What do you want to try to say me? I can see your lips move themselves, but right now we are so far from eachother. I just see your smile to me. My heart beats so fast like yours.
I need to enter with you in ours parallel world. We just need close ours eyes and take a deep breath. I feel you have something to say me. I will waiting for the right time. I feel it. Like the other things you said me. I love this magic thing we have among us. Despite we never met us, til now, ours connection is the most magic feeling we have and im sure you feel the same i feeling in this moment.
at you, diving myself in yours eyes, i just can feel just what i feel for you. A feelings goes beyond love. A bond so stronger everyday, and eachtime we connect eachother make it bigger. I still realizing what happened among us. And isnt just fruit of my imagination. It’s real. Now i feel you, right here, next to me. Slowly we connecting eachother. Just closing ours eyes and taking a deep breath. And wherever you are and whatever you doing, i can see you, your’re here next to me. Looking at me with these eyes, i remain breathless and slowly we enter in ours parellel world. We are in front of us, you mention a shy smile and you whisper me a ‘hi…’, taking my face in your hands. I feel yours soft skin on mine. That touch makes me blush and a tear falls down from my face. You stay in front of me in this way, makes me feel excite.
To know that ours parellel world is able let us be together in this way is a inexplicable thing, but it’s fantastic. I know it, and also you know it.
And eachtime you want to stay with me, need to talk to me. you must to whisper my name. You know for sure i’ll feel it and together we will enter in ours world and there we can stay together embraced, looking at us and feel ours feelings arounds us.
Left me for an istant from yesterday. I feeling you so close to me. I dont need to close my eyes to be connect with you. Yours soul, yours heart and yours mind are connecting with mine from yesterday night. I feel your closeness so closer than ever. Ours light melting eachother in a faster way, as they are dancing, as they want recover the lost time. My dancing butterflies dancing like crazy ones. I feel your heart beats faster like mine. If i close i see you next to me and i feel you taking a deep breath taking my hands and right after we are in our magic parellel world. How is it possible we feel us eachother so close, despite ours distance. If we close ours eyes and we open them right after, we are in front of us, and we can feel ours hands on us. We can feel ours frehness and face to face we dive ourselves in ours glances, and there, we just need to look at us to see ours feelings arounds us like a in a magic potion. You in other side of the planet, me in front of this pc screen, but we feel us so closer than before. Slowly we reach us eachother and this continuos flow of emotions is the most inexplicable thing we feel us eachother, but in someways the right way we feel close us eachother. Ours approach has becoming so faster. It will arrives the day we will meet us and we will be speechless, breathless.
You think in these hours? I’m thinking of you. And i know your mind is in a little confusion. I feel it, as you know it. In these hours i thinking about you so strong. I know you would like run away from the social conventions, and you would like come in ours parallel world, and stay embraced in my arms and no say anything, just whisper just few words. My love, you can do it. You must go far from the place your are in this moment. Close your eyes and take a deep breath as i’m doing right now at the same time with you. And when open ours eyes we are in front of us and our light arounds us and it’s just we need. We touch on our heart and we can feel they beats so fast together. And ours souls become one soul. My breath, here becoming so. fast and i close eyes, i feel you next to me. But i feel something, wherever you are, blocks you. Your glance is towards me. I see you, i try to take your hand to make you enter in ours parellel world. I feel your soul, your heart, your mind are towards to me. Maybe you’ll can do later, when all that it has passed. Ours distance it’s ours only obstacle. But my love how i feel you here close to me, and how i feel your desire to embrace me so tight. I feel you.
this afternoon that, despite your distance, i feel you so close to me, almost by my side, next to me. And you leave me breathless, also a little in confusion. My dancing butterflies are crazy. And what i’m feelin right now is just you, altought you’re there it’s like you was here. Here and you looking at me without saying any words. Just looking at me. You make feel beats my heart like a crazy one. Gently i take your hand to my chest and i whisper to you ‘It’s you. You make me drive crazy’. You mention a smile and caress my face, always in silence. And so kindly you kiss my lips. We remain breathless in that moment where ours hearts and souls meet eachother. I need to stay in this way for a while. You embrace me so stronger. I can hear your breath making slowly more faster. For a while we meet us eachother in ours eyes. And there we enter in ours parellel world, where anybody cant divide us eachother. There we are just us and ours glances. Just us and nobody else,
… How i feel you so close to me right now. I just cant believe it.