You so close to me, isnt possible to dont explode. I feel you by my side. I whisper you ‘Let me make my deep breath’ Your hands embrace me. We are in front one of another. Let me look at you so, without breath. You look at me without saying me nothing, but you have understand what i feeling in this moment. We are united more we could imagine. My head is exploding and i cant hold back my emotions. You know what i want to say. Our parallel world isnt a thing created by my imagination. Day by day, i discovering more thing than i can imagine that unites us. And this feeling i have, it confirms me your sensibility, and this makes me drives crazy. It makes me drive crazy our real distance, because, instead we are so close more than we could imagine. I feel you, despite you are far from me. And our parallel world, now i have the certainty is our little world of our connection. Im writing you, as if i was scream you. I dont know, if you can hear me, in my silence, i screaming all what i feeling. Tell me if you can hear what i saying you silencely.
Breath if you stare at me in this way. I was thinking to write you something different, but it’s so difficult, if you stare at me so. My head and my stomach get in confusion, and i know, in some ways, you’re close to me. My confusion get connecting with yours and slowly our parallel world is waiting for us. If we both close our eyes at the same time, we can feel we touch, we taking our hands and slowly and together we enter in our world. Our sensations is expanding, and what we feeling is something we can only feel, when we are in this magic world. My heart starts to beat so fast and it seems it stops sometimes. I look at you and what i feel is something that i cant explain still to myself, but it’s the most beautiful emotion i ever have felt from long time. What i feel when i’m with you, alone, here in this bedroom, in front of this pc, where i can write everything openly, it’s beautiful. And i didnt still found the right words to describe it. Sometimes i stop myself. I try to collect all what i feel and i’m not able to. The only thing i can do is, to shake my head, taking the usual deep breath and to continue to stare at you, and wonder myself how much i feel your closeness, despite our real distance and the most important thing, you still dont know about me, as i wish. Sometimes i feel your closeness in a way that i must to stop, close my eyes, and i can feel your embrace. Like a punch in stomach, but a punch that makes me fly and make me think, that what we have created it’s real. From that night i have had that dream and you have said me, what we know.
That’s enough that each of us whisper our names and our connection get active itself, and what we feels is only ours. Maybe it’s only fruit of my imagination, but i dont want believe it. It’s too real. And the coincidences are became too many.
Used, to these emotions. But eachtime i feeling them, also when i sleep, i feel myself as if i was embrace by you. And this time i’ve feel you whispered by name, but i was slept so deeply and i wasnt able to wake me up, but i felt you. You’ve called my name. And now im here, in bedroom, writing, you are here, looking at me. Sometimes i feel you that you hold me tight from behind and sometimes i feel you eyes penetrates me deeply, looking for something. Your glance tell me, you looking for that something link us in this strange way. While i was slept, trying to wake me up, i felt your embrace so sweet and tender. Maybe you was just close to me, and it was just in that moment our parallel world is became for a second our real world.
Now, i’m write what i have feel, my vise gets bigger and bigger, and if i close my eyes i can see you by my side. You mentioning me a shy smile and our lights float around. My heart is exploding, while our glance meet. If i close my eyes and i take a deep breath, i can feel your scent in the air that around me, and i can find in your eyes, a place where i can dive myself peacefully, while we approach one to another so slowly we are touching our own skin, and we stay so. Face to face. While we feel our own breath getting slower. We embraced us, we disappearing in of it.
Slowly and sweetly you arrive and move my hair to whisper ‘I’m here’. I close my eyes while you say me that, and you turn me, and for the first time we are in front one of another. You have on that black shirt, i place my hand on it and you whisper me ‘Why did you take so long?’ Yes, it true i’ve felt you all day close to me, as if you need me so much, as if it was happened something. My feelings has overwhelm me in such way. It wasnt never happened before. I’ve felt my vise explode in me, my head has explode. I have had to close my eyes for whole time to calm me down. But now im here and you’re front of me caressing my face. Our flows gets bigger and bigger eachday. And eachday it’s something a like new sensation for me. I never felt similar feeling before than these, with you. Eachday our connect is stronger than day past days. I look at you and in your eyes i see that you have had feel the same. Without say me nothing, you’ve tell me you had the same feeling. We look at us eachother. Our parallel world is growing fast, and what we can do is follow what our emotions is saying, one to another. Slowly we approach, one to another. Our hands on our face, looking at the most closest thing to our soul. Our eyes. Slowly, i touch on your neo. You mentioning me a shy smile, letting me do it, and slowly we kiss us so sweetly.
Our parallel world is becoming, slowly our real world.
Give me your hand’ you say me. You smiling me. You come behind me , and you whisper me ‘Look, our parallel world waiting for us’. You embrace me so tight. What we feel in this moment is a million of emotions exploding. Our flows didnt stop among us. By now is a continuos flow of energy, and our parallel world is in front of us and we feel it, and in some ways we can see it into of us and we are overwhelm. You take my hand and look at forward, you look at up to the sky and you indicate it, as if it was finally real. It’s there. Where all our feeling are living. It’s in front of us, and you strecth your hand to take me there. You whisper me ‘Close your eyes’. I take a deep breath, and slowly, you hold me tightly and suddenly we feel transported into of it. We both are caressd by another new sensantion, and we, in front, one to another, slowly we begin to touch us eachother, without take off eyes one from another. And our lights float around, while our heart exploding by one of the most emotion we ever felt. Our parallel world is there and we both, we can see it and feel it.
It’s been as if an emotion tornado overwhelm me. I didnt cant hold back my tears and some of them, are fallen. I’ve had the sensation, that in that exact moment you’ve read what i wrote you. Let me believe in it. You’ve read what i wrote you and now you’re think a little to me. And now our parallel world get bigger and bigger, and now my sensantions has a real meaning for you. Because, now you know what was you’ve feel, and what was these sensations you have feel. I need to take a deep breath to dont drive crazy for real. What i’ve felt it’s been like punch in the stomach. My vise was already there, but those punch has been so strong. I never had this feeling thinking to you. Are we really connect? Despite our distance, we feel so close in this way, one of another. Did i feel, what you’ve felt, and it made overwhelm me emotionally? It seem so. It’s been the very first time i’ve felt in this way. The first time, from i feel this connect with you, and it has happened few hours after, i sent you my letter. Something real, is happening among us. Our parallel world gets bigger and bigger, trasforming itself in our real world.
Is exploding, and now i cant hold back my tears from my face. Still i cant believe, what is happened again, among us. By now i can tell myself ‘I’ve told it to you’. Few days ago i have feel you, that you have try to say me something, and you have show me it few minutes ago. I’ve realized it that few istants after i’ve see your tweet. I dont really know what to think. My tears falling from my face. Here the emotions gets bigger and bigger. I’m a little in confusion. Are we really connect? Can you give some real sign of our connect, if not i go drive crazy. My mind is exploding, and now i feel you closer than ever. With you, eachday, is a new feeling. Despite our distance it’s like we are close, one of another. And i just cant believe it that is happening between you and me. I need to close my eyes and take a deep breathe and it’s better that i dont think it was happened once again, because i drive crazy for real.
All that is began last december, and it continue so fast, that i’ve lost the count.
I can say with all the certain i have, that our parallel world isn’t only a world of imagination that i’ve created, but it’s real, where our feelings and emotions, but above all where we existing only us, and in our parallel world we can tell us everything what we feeling.
My heart still exploding, with all my emotions, and i still surprise myself to what is happened few days ago, and one hour ago. I didnt believe to say that, but are these moments that i would like stay more by your side, taking your hands, maybe stay in silence, and listening to what does our hearts, ours feelings, have to say.
You telling me something. I see you, and i can whispering you ‘how much i missing you’, despite i feel you close to me. I have said something it would happens. It happened, in someways, i never seen many shoots or video with you, in a short time. And it has happened. Despite our distance we are always connect. You tell me always something, and i feel it. I dont know how can is it possible, but it is so. Everything can link to our parallel world, and now i believe it. All that is began last december, it can be related only to our magic world.
Meanwhile i writing this few words, i still whispering your name, and something inside of me, it says me, you have feel it. Close our eyes at the same time, and we entering in our parallel world. You taking my hand. You’re in front of me. We no moves, just looking at us. I caress your face. And now, i see your surprise. You have realized only now, how’s is strong our connection. I’ve realized all that, but like you, i’m almost speechless. My heart beats like a crazy one. Our connection, our parallel world does exists, for real. And we cant do anything about it. In someways we are link. We are connect in the most beautiful way. With our hearts, ours souls, but above all, with our minds.
Tell me, you feel the same connect.
Really hope is that you may read everything i left you on twitter or you may take a look on this open diary. Making the sum of the people to whom i tell what which i feel, you’re the only one. And also if you dont read this open diary, it’s like you listen to me. And only with you, i can open myself with no any shame. Also if i write here, just to say what i feel, it seems to me, that something reaches to you. What which i feel, when i feeling you by my side, despite your distance is something of incredible. If ever we meet, i would tell you more things i never told to anyone. And i’m sure, what which i feel when we get connect, in someways, you feel it too. I would stay hours, days to tell you the minimum thing i had in my life. And you would do the same. And in this way we would enter, without realizing it, in our parallel world. And, always in this way, we would discover that our feeling, up to now that we have feel it was real, to the end and we have wait for just the right time to meet us. All we felt it wasn’t just a sensation, but something real.
I close my eyes, taking a deep breath, trying to imagine you, close to me. Trying to feeling your profume. I calling you. But tonight you are so far from me. I dont feel the usual vise in my stomach, when i feel you by my side. I repeat myself ‘it cant happens each night’, but it would be fantastic. Our connection is so strong, when we connect one of another. We have a bond so strong, also if we dont know what it is for real. But for sure, it does exists. When i look at your eyes, my soul opening to the most beautiful experiences of my life. Someone can defines it, telepathy. I describe all that as ‘Ours Parallel World’. And isnt magic, or my madness. It’s just something we have inside, both of us. We know it, just us, we only feel us it. And when we feel it, it’s a such beautiful feeling. In our parallel world, you told me things that would realized. Can you imagine, how can feel myself.
Writing these few lines, i’m feel close to you. Now i close my eyes, something tells me, you hearing me. You know what to do. And we get connecting one of another. It’s a great feelin what which i’m feeling right now. It gets bigger inside of me. Maybe i’ll be a crazy one, but since i was child i have had these sensations, and i didnt never wrong. And these sensations, emotions get bigger. Now my thoughts are all toward to you. Now i feel our connection is began. You have whispered my name. Ours souls meets, and our parallel world welcome us.
If all that it was the begining of our real world?