In this bedroom, i waiting for the magic realize. Slowly i whisper your name. I waiting for something is reaches to you. I close my eyes, taking a deep breathe, looking me around. Hoping something reaching to me. I looking at you, waiting for you. And something slowly it coming. My vise, slowly growing fast. I close my eyes again, and suddendly, i feel your closeness. Despite our distance, we are approaching one of another. I feel your hand on my shoulder, while i’m writing in this diary. You turn around me. You kneel in front of me. And right after we stand up, and we are in front one of another. You look at me with your glance that make it me blush, and i look down, but you whisper me ‘Look at me’. And in that glance we enter together in our parallel world. I touch on your chest trough your shirt. In that touch, our lights begins to floating among us, and our emotions get bigger. Little whispers, they leave us breathless, speechless. You take my face in your hands, your fingers caress my skin, i thrills. I remain without oxygen. Closing my eyes, you approaching me, and sweetly kissing. I take you hand and i put it on my heart. It beating like a crazy one. You do the same. Slowly you let me make slide my hand in your shirt that slowly falls down on the floor, and you remain in front of me, in this way, speechless while you look at me, caressing my face and i dive myself in your eyes, where i can feel every emotions, feelings when you are with me, in this way. In front one of another, leaving all what we feeling arounding us.
More than ever. My connection with you has becoming bigger everyday. My dancing butterflies dancing always more a crazy dance and my stomach has a node tighter and it melting when you are so close to me. And last night it was so tight and when you was next to me a beautiful sensations has pervaded me in a such beautiful way. And also when i woke up myself today, that sensation was still inside of me. I was asleep with your smille and you still here close to me. And this feeling what i feeling from last december it’s a wonderful feeling. I’m sure, in someways, you feel that strange feeling in your stomach, eachtime we connecting us and slowly we enter in ours parellel world. I see it trought it yours glance you giving to me. And i feel your closeness make it bigger everyday it pass.
I can just imagine ours emotions, when we will meet us for the first time. They will be the biggest emotions we will feeling. Eyes in eyes and ours continuos flow finally will be complete. And ours eyes tell us everything we have feeling in this period we have had felt inside. Our deepest love.
Yes, i can admit, what i felt, it was a dark feelings but now i know it was due to you for close a door ad open another one. Now what i feeling is cleaning and what i feel i more brillant than what i felt last night. And now my feelings are more colored than the black’s . And now if i close my eyes and i take a long breath, i can see you coming to me. And i can hear you whisper ‘I’m sorry, for what you felt last night’.
We are in ours parellel world. Here we can look at us into ours eyes. You touch on my face, my skin. Taking my hands, you want hold me tight. I let you do it. Now i want everything is you. Skin to skin, eyes in eyes, breath and whispers from both. And now you and i want ours souls melting eachother. And what we waiting for is just ours look into ourselve. You take my face, and again you say me ‘Im so…’ i stop you before you complete what you wanted say me. ‘It’s ok, it has passed away’. We must to look forward, and what is important is what we feel for eachother. Right now. Ours parellel love.
Here you’re to destabilize me, and for sure i cant hold back my tears. It’s useeless to say how i feel your closeness despite your distance. My heart exploded with all its emotions inside. It was a day full of emotions about you. And ours parellel world get connected eachother more than ever. And i still feel you next to me. And if i close my eyes i see your eyes on me and you mention a smile just for me. And i can hear you. You say me ‘It’s all right’. You take my hand to your heart and in a whisper ‘I feel the same’. I just look at your eyes. With no any words ours souls says themselves what we arent able to say.
My heart still beats like a crazy. Still a tear falls down from my face, while i writing these few lines. What i feel right now it’s like tornado I feel ours bond make it bigger and stronger. Ours parellel world is here. We just close ours eyes for a while, and we are in.
Just you and me. Just us.
I rembembered that movie. I’ve seen just one time, but i dont rembembered how much passion you’ve put on your acting.
Few scenes and i got your sensibility. And for real if we meet eachtoher you’ll have any problems* with me on the contrary, you would be the most sweet guy that i would meet.
You would my best friend for sure or something more. We woud share everything as i wrote in this open diary.
I loved to see once again this movie… I seen it in 2009/10 and i never figured that in someway you would be entered in my life in a such way, morever changing it in such great way.
How strange the destiny is in someway. I knew you but i wasnt still aware about your importance in my life til few years ago.
In someway that thin rope that we unites us strongly it was born years earlier.
But however i’m so happy that in someway we met trough this incredible world called ‘internet’. And i’m happy i’ve met your soul, your eyes and you’ve taught me many things.
And still surprises myself about how much is magic your smile is and it got the sun inside.
*I…Me and myself
make me feel in this way…. i need you as the night needs of the light. You’re my sun. I miss you and i need you so badly. I need of your strenght as when you gave me when i really needed of it. You was and you are the only person i really would like to have close to me in this period. Also for few hours but in these hours i could say you everything. I could express my feeling for you with no shame. Just a look into your eyes and for me would be the most beautiful thing. Eyes into eyes My soul into your. Maybe a soft kiss from you a touch on my face. Now the most important thing to me is, maybe, that you link my name to me. And now you’re aware about our bond… our parellel world is the only world you and me wants to lives in. Also we’re so far from eachother. In our bottom we need eachother more than ever. I want to whisper you ‘How much i really love you, i need you’.
You and me closer and closer to eachother. I believe one of these days we will collide. And at the end we dont ask no more ‘why we took so long’. We did know just eachother already. We met in our parellel world. I’m sure one thing when we will meet, we dont need any words. We did know ourselves in our connections, in our parellel world. The other day when i felt you every hours of the day and then i felt myself really ‘empty’, i really think we had reached our peak of our sensitivity. And you’ve checked this ‘open diary’, i’m sure it was you. And now i’m thinking about you, that strange feeling we know, pervades me once again. I’m calling you and you hear me. All myself is towards to you. Mind, soul, heart. And yes i’m calling you and you hearing me. Just look up at the sky. Our lights dancing together. And i feeling you and you feel me. Our minds and which we feeling right now for eachother is our bond. Which i really need right now is just to kiss you lips, your soft lips. Touch on your skin. To be aware about this bond. A soul bond that lives in our parellel world.
Til now i never ask myself this question, but i really dont need to know the answer. I feel you so connected to me. You’re so close to me, also you’re so far from me, and this is enough for me.
Need you in this time. You have no idea, how i miss you and how much i need to have your eyes on me. Feel you breath when you are so close to me. Need to dive myself into your eyes saying anything. In silence, but in that silence we express everything we feel for eachother. Your light into your eyes hypnotizes me. I would like to hear you breathless. Your hand take mine and we just we know that moment has coming. Our souls calling eachother. We need to connect eachother. And just with our look we feel everything we need to hear to. Our music take us high in the sky. Our lights melts eachother, and we just feel a warm hug. Our hug. Our embrace. Our souls embraces eachother, and we must stay just to look in our eyes and let our hearts speaks for eachother. I need to dive into eyes to feel me in our parellel world with you. Your light is my anchor. And i just need of it. I just need of you.
Maybe you’re not aware about your importance in my life. No you dont. Since you’ve entered in my life, i started to see the life under new light, maybe our light has started to bright from that moment. I really don’t know. But as well tonight i’ve talked about you to my uncle and she got the very ‘importance’ of you in my life. I held back tears with difficulty. She saw me. I told her almost everything about you. She got your meaning to me when i told her about your Long John. I’ve seen her look changes. And in that moment i got she understoods which is the i feel i have for you. I told her i seen my life in your Long John. She got we have a double thin rope that unites us. And i believe she got for real your ‘importance’ of you for me. And she will of the few pepole who get my real love for you. And i’m sure she looks at you with a new look and she will doesn’t consider you just an actor, but the person who helped her nephew to goes on.
Luke, i never stop to thank you for everything you give me everyday.
Luke Arnold – Actor. Writer. Director
with the same eyes but also with the new ones. Our parellel world is so close than i could imagine. My dream could comes true one day if we just wanted it for real. I took your hand and in a whisper i told you everything i really wanted. Just a metion smile from you. And just this for me it has been so important. Just to say that few words and you’ve read them it means so much to me. Maybe just you did rembember about me. And just this little thing it’s such a big thing to me. Maybe one day our eyes meets eachother and the only thing we could do is to smile and say anything, Maybe hug eachother. The only hug we really need. And everything i wrote til now in this ‘open diary’ to you comes true for real. Maybe we will have to talk so much about our own sensations we felt eachother everytime we got connected eachother. Everytime i felt my dancing butterflies and you was there. And everytime i wrote how much i needed you it was for real. And now i know for sure you rembember about me. That girl you helped in a such way she never forget, and she thank you everyday for everyhing you gave her. That girl that’s me.