I really think, we are real connected, because what i feel when i feel you here close to me is the most great emotion i have had in my life. And maybe i’ll be crazy, but what i feel when our mind get connect eachother, makes me feel so alive and it enough to look at in your eyes to know, that you’re feeling something similar. We are living this strange emotions. I feel you when you whisper my name, or something makes you think to me, and i feel it. As now, my vise in my stomach and my head are exploding inside of myself, and if i look at you, our parallel world is around us, and it makes me feel your hands on me that caress my little body, and for dont faint i must to close my eyes and take a deep breath, while i feel your hands still on my hips trough my t-shirt. If i close my eyes i can see you in front of your pc screen that you attempt to memorize yours script lines, but there is something in this time frame, it distract you, and in your deep, you know, it’s our connection. And we both feel it. We are strongly connect. And now, our flows are in continuos come and go trough our minds, that we can see our lights runs trough our parallel world, we let them to melt eachother. And all these emotions we feel, wear us out, but despite all, we love them, because is our way to comunicate. And i think it’s the most beautiful way to communicate, trough our feelings, our emotions, our connection trought this open diary. And i can only whisper you ‘You dont know how you makes me feel alive’.
What i’m feel, it overwhelm me in a such way that i’m feel lost. Also, this morning when i woke me up, i’ve feel you embracing me. What do you try to say me, still? I thought you’ve told me which you wanted to tell me, instead there is other thing, that you want to say me. This feeling, that i’m feeling that it’s last too long. It never happened, and it overwhelm me. It lasts from almost one month. And everytime i wake me up i feel my vise in my stomach. You’re always by my side, embracing me so tight, and i feel you always here in my bedroom.
Surely what you told me is a big thing and it mixed up my feelings. And now my toughts are towards to you.
I thinking about all what is happened betwen us, since it all it is began. Since when you came to me in that dream, telling what we know. And now, i’m think to what is happening. It’s happening with you. Surely we have exceeded another level of our parallel world. We feel close one of another, more than before. I knew, you had something to say me, i have feel it, and in someways you did it.
It’s strange how all this is began, but even more it’s strange how all this continuing. Our bond gets tighter and tighter, among us. Despite our distance, we feel so close one of another, each day that it pass…
If you could see what i’ve inside of me, you would see a stormy sea. My feelings fighting. And i really dont know how i can calms them. And only with you i can express freely what i’ve inside. It’ seems impossible but it is so. Only with you i can open myself in a way i never did before. I try to explain what i feel to the other people, but they seems says me ‘yes’, only to make me happy, and to change speech.
Instead with you is so more easy. Maybe because we are living the same situations. You feel the same feelings i feel, and not only we are ‘living our parallel world’, but because we are beyond. Yes, our parallel world has something with it, but i still dont know how, but isnt an inventeted thing by me. I would stay here to write to you each thing i feel about you and other things, but from last december, as you know, something link us strongly. And i dont know how it has could happened, but it is so.
When i begin to write here, in this open diary i’ve dedicated you, and i hope you may read it one day, i can feel only myself. I can let free my feelings comes out. As i’ve told you, I prefer to write you, to leave my thoughts, during the night. My mind runs free with my feelings and nobody cant see me if i let free, for real my feelings, and some tears falls down from my face.
Yes, sometimes, i think i’m super sensitive, but i cant anything about it. But i know you understand me.
When i feel you close to me, it’s because you feel the same, and it’s a unexplicable thing, but it is so. Our parallel world is here, we can just only to find out it. But we know that there is it