And smile me, as if it was the most normal thing of this world and i feel your smile wraps me. I close my eyes, taking a deep breath and in some ways you’re here by my side. I feel you more than ever. More the days pass, more i feel our parallel world get grow up around us and it unites us in it own way. Maybe, we dont still know us, but as if it was. My vise in stomach is always more big. And in these hours i feel your closesness in such way that i must stop and to think to other thing, but it’s useless, something bigger get back me to you.
And in this bedroom, here in front of this pc, with our music on, despite our distance, i feel you. I feel your eyes on me, and my heart beats fast. I feel your dont take glance off from me. Despite you real distance i feel your embrace, your hands on me and all this, it leave me without breath. And i still ask myself ‘How is it possible’. I look at you and in a little whisper i ask you ‘Do you feel the same?’
I feel you. You are behind me, slowly you embracing me. I feel your arms hold me softly. And i feel you inside of me. My head exploding like a bomb, when our parallel world unites us. You behind me, whisper me what which i want to hear, and you know it, what i want to hear. I close my eyes, taking a deep breath, while i feel you turn me. When i open my eyes you’re in front of me, that you sweetly smiling me. Our emotions melt. Despite our distance, we feel close eachother. Our heart begins to beat fast, and despite we are so far, we can touch us eachother. We can feel our feelings escapes way from our heart and slowly melting. Our vise in stomach gets bigger and bigger. We both close our eyes and we are in front one of another. I place my hand on your chest, and trought your shirt i feel your bareness. I begin to feel myself breathless, cuz i feel you’ve start to untied it, for me. And you have put my hand inside of it. That repetive game, by now, turns on our deepest thoughts and desires. While we play this game, we dont take off our eyes one from another, and more this game is slow, more our senses expand and we feel us more closer than ever. For a second i close the eyes, and in that exact moment you hold my hips under the t-shirt i have on. Slowly you approach me, till our skin touch. Your shirt, suddenly, is there, over your arms, and our chests gently touch eachother. We look at us one in another. You have my face in your hands, and slowly you whisper me ‘We remain so’. When you say this our lights begins to floats around, and our emotions overwhelm us. Without realizing, we touch on our lips, without kiss us, till to the end you start to kiss me endlessly.
Looking at me, in this way. With your eyes, your glance on me, and a whisper fly in the air ‘Tell me how is began all that’. I remain without words. I look at you. You are here, sat in this chair next to me. And your eyes stare at me. I close my eyes, taking a deep breathe. You are awaiting. We look at us eachother for a second. Our lights begins to floating among us, meanwhile i try to tell you how it’s began.
You asking me how it’s all began. All what can i say ‘It’s began all through your eyes. From what i have feel a night. It was a click in my mind. I really didnt know what i did i these moments, but something it said me to check your social you love more. I did it. And you was there few seconds earlier. I have said myself it was only a coincidence. I didnt realize that it was the very step to our connect.’ I close my eyes for a moment, in the air i feel the same new smell i have feel the other day. My heart begin to beats like a crazy one, my emotions running, and you are here, looking at me in this way. I hear your deep voice, it whispers ‘Continue, dont stop yourself’. Some tears falling from my face. I need to close once again my eyes. I looking at you, here by my side. The only thing that it can distract me, it’s your shirt. But you want to listen how it’s began our connect. I try to collect my memories and i try to continue to tell.
‘I have thought it was just a coincidence, but more i have go on, more the coincidences were too strange. And when i have had that dream, all it was began to be more clear.
I have do my research, and all that you have say me in that dream, it was real.’
You looking at me, without add nothing. You only look at me. You mention me to continue. ‘Continue, say me more’ you whisper me. I close my eyes and i looking at in your eyes. Once again i take a deep breathe. ‘What you want to know, you know it. My vise in my stomach. When you try to say me something, isnt something personal, instead, but it something public, that i can feel few days earlier.
I dont know how it’s possible but it’s so.’
And now you are here, and you want to hear ‘how all that it’s began’.
That’s incredible. How can i describe you, something inexplicable also to me. But it is so. I have try, but with simple words, isnt possible to explain what our parallel world wants to say us. I only know what i only i need to know. We are connect.
Also when i was sleeping i felt my vise in my stomach and in someways, despite our distance, i felt you so close, despite i really dont know what were you doing. Also you with this strange feelings.
I know what you feeling. Here in this bedroom where it all has began. What i feel in this moment is the same feeling i felt since that day in december, but stronger. If i think to you, i have no breath to continue. I must close my eyes and take a deep breath, and suddendly you are here, by my side. You looking at me with your glance. What i feeling when i looking at you is a mix up of emotions that just you can give me. You are in front of me. Eyes in eyes we enter in our parallel world. A whisper from you leave me speechless. ‘You no have idea, how much i would stay with you tonight’. I look at you, i take you face and i caress your skin, you close your eyes and your breath making slowly faster. I guide your hand on my face, and right after you open your eyes. Between us ours lights begins their dance, it makes us flying. Our hands hold tight. We let us not look away. Ours glance has more to tell than words.
Ours Parallel World is made of these feelings. Glances, whispers, me and you speechless, breathless and that feelings we still cant explain but when we feel them, we know it’s our connection. I feel it, you feel it. It’s inexplicable, it’s just ours.
able to leave me breathless. And eachtime i say myself ‘take a long breath’, but as always you leave me speechless. Once again you did it. Also with a simply smile like this one. But you did something more, and you know it. And i know what im doing here, here in this open diary, it’s the right way to reach to you, and nobody leave me this from my head. I know you know about this diary and nobody leave me the idea that among these visualizations from Austraila there is yours. It was from two days that i didnt feel you close to me, and from today, like a blow in my stomach, i feel you as you was here next to me. And now i came in my bedroom and checked the statisticscs of my diary and i seen Australia, my heart began to beats like a crazy one. How is it possible? Are we really connected eachother? I must surrender myself to this? Or i must make some resistance? If ours parellel world does real exists, i surrender to it and i close my eyes til i dont meet yours and you take my face in your hands and you whisper me ‘open them’. And we in front of us, we touch on ours skin. Just looking at your glance, i whisper ‘You’re here’ and i cant hold back some tears. Eyes in eyes, you whisper me ‘I’ll be here, for you. with you. Always’.