I feel you. You are behind me, slowly you embracing me. I feel your arms hold me softly. And i feel you inside of me. My head exploding like a bomb, when our parallel world unites us. You behind me, whisper me what which i want to hear, and you know it, what i want to hear. I close my eyes, taking a deep breath, while i feel you turn me. When i open my eyes you’re in front of me, that you sweetly smiling me. Our emotions melt. Despite our distance, we feel close eachother. Our heart begins to beat fast, and despite we are so far, we can touch us eachother. We can feel our feelings escapes way from our heart and slowly melting. Our vise in stomach gets bigger and bigger. We both close our eyes and we are in front one of another. I place my hand on your chest, and trought your shirt i feel your bareness. I begin to feel myself breathless, cuz i feel you’ve start to untied it, for me. And you have put my hand inside of it. That repetive game, by now, turns on our deepest thoughts and desires. While we play this game, we dont take off our eyes one from another, and more this game is slow, more our senses expand and we feel us more closer than ever. For a second i close the eyes, and in that exact moment you hold my hips under the t-shirt i have on. Slowly you approach me, till our skin touch. Your shirt, suddenly, is there, over your arms, and our chests gently touch eachother. We look at us one in another. You have my face in your hands, and slowly you whisper me ‘We remain so’. When you say this our lights begins to floats around, and our emotions overwhelm us. Without realizing, we touch on our lips, without kiss us, till to the end you start to kiss me endlessly.
Caress, you was here, next to me, when i was on the couch. And you was here by my side and you’ve caress me. I felt you. And now you’re here. Looking at me with this your glance, almost lost. Lost in your thoughts. Lost, but so close to me. What do you think? Do you feel the same emotions i’m feelings right now. If i close my eyes i feel your breath make it slowly fast, and i can hear your whisper in my ear. You are behind me. I feel your hands hold my hips. I breathless, i smell you skin. Slowly i turn and i see your eyes. You metioning me a shy smile. ‘What do you feel?’ i whispering you. You looking at me in silence. You taking my hand on your chest. ‘The same you feeling’. Our glances sparkling and we enter in our parallel world.
What i feel when i feel connect with you is an inexplicable feeling. I feel our thin rope gets shorter always more, and eachtime i feel this sensantions, i think something special will happens between us. That thin rope, as i called it, maybe is our parallel world. And my emotions makes bigger and bigger eachtime i feel you so close to me. I never felt something like this till now. Then now that you let me know ‘you like what i wrote’ this feeling has grow up more. Yes i know, it’s a stupid thing, but what i feeling it’s true. What i began to feel last december and what has happened, aint just coincidence. What i feeling, you feel it the same, maybe in other way.
I still wondering myself about what i feeling when i feel you so close to me. I miss breath, and for real i must take a long a deep breath to dont remain breathless or speechless, when, in some way, you’re next to me. Like now. But in other way, i miss you. I know, this open diary, i opening my heart, my feelings, my emotions, to you, but, maybe it will reach one day, it will be not more enough. What i will do, that day. I really dont know. Maybe it will never reach. We will would meet us already, who know.
Tll that day, i will continue to write to you in this open diary.