If you

somma7Feelings the same i’m feel right now, i really dont know what i can say. It’s from before i feeling you so close to me, as i never felt you. In someways, i have the certain, you’ve take a look to my lastest tought i wrote in this open diary.  Something tells me, you thinking about me.  I never felt ours connection so strong. And i must left what i’ve doing, to write what  are my feelings, in this moment. And how im feeling. I’m feeling like arounding by most biggest emotions and if i close my eyes i can see you here in my bedroom, despite isnt the usually hour im write to you… Something tells me, ours connection is strong. I can feel you whisper me ‘Something will happens among us’. I can feel trought your voice, but i can feel it also inside of me. That’s sensations, like a twirl, sourrounding me from before.  If you feel the same, please tell me it. Im going crazy. Ours parallel world is becoming fast, our real world, and ours feeling is melting together like never before. I see your eyes on what i write in this diary i’ve wanted to dedicate to you. And i feel you feeling the same emotions i feel in this moment. I know it’s something inexplicable, but it is happening.



I feel you


So close to me. When i feel you in this way i must let you know it. And the only way i know is this. Writing in this my open diary. Let you know how i feel but i’m sure you know it, beacause i’m sure you feel the same. I feel you by my side. Ours connections is so stronger. I dont need neither to take a long breath, if i close my eyes, i can see you in front of me. Your glance into my eyes, and i speechless. I feel your hands on me. And mine on your chest, trought this white shirt. You take my hand, in silence, you put it in.  Slowly my hand slide into your chest. The shirt slowly falls down. We both speechless.. We close ours eyes and we right after we are in ours parellel world. I smell your skin and we look at us into ours eyes. Your whisper ‘I just needed of you’. I take your face, ‘When you need me, just you whisper my name, i will feel you’. That’s has happened. We feel us,  despite ours distance. That’s how does works our connection.
I close my eyes and i feel you taking my hands, then my face. Face to face we look at us. A whisper ‘I need you… i want you close to me’.  I feel inside something will happens real soon. Ours connection does works in this way. I will wait for it. You try to say me something. I will waiting for your signals. In meawhile you’re so close to me. Your glance drives me crazy, you know it. My heart beats faster, and im sure also yours. Whatever you do now, im sure yours thoughts are towards me, like mine and like two forces meets eachother, in the sky, our lights melting.
What you try to say me i will wait for it, and i will get it trought your signals you will send to me. I feel you next to me, so close.


You by

jacketmicheal_fortelMy side, and it’s incredible today how i feel you so close to me. I must to start to write what i felt if not i became crazy… it was like a blow in my stomach. I know it’s a strange feeling but i know that’s ours feeling. Ours minds, but above all are ours souls getting connect eachother and like crazy we enter in ours parellel world. If i didnt began to write here i did believe to become crazy. How i feel you so close to me. I close my eyes and i feel your soul, your heart beats likes mine. So faster and i can feel you so close me at point to to feel your breath on my skin. Oh my. I close my eyes and i see you next to me. Your hand on my leg and i take it with mine. Your soft skin. ‘Your skin’ i whisper you. Your glance is so languid and it says just one thing:’I need your lips, kiss me’. For a while my glance is into yours, but right after you come closer to me and  begin to taste so slowly my lips, and i melt myself. Your kiss is one of the most sexiest and sweetest kiss you gave me till now. You kissing me yet. Breathless, my heart explodes inside. My feelings drives me crazy. You drive me crazy. Still kissing me, i touch your face so slowly and i understand, ours souls melting eachother in the sweetest way, becoming one soul. What feeling i feel in this moment. One of the strongest i felt till now. From ours connection has began, i’m sure you feel the same, whatever you doing. I’m sure you stopped yourself to think to me. You looked at up the sky and you whispered my name, and i felt you.

That’s how’it works ours connection.


How it’s

easy to feel you. And when i check it, you’re there. I can just to smile, because with you eveything is easy. Easy to feel you, also we’re so far from eachother. Easy to hear your whisper. Your hand on my soul, on my heart. I dont know what do you feel, but when i feel you in this way, so close to me, i get in confusion. How is it possible that i can feel you in this way, despite ours distance. I feel you so close to me, by my side. I can feel your hand into my soul it caressing my heart. And i feel my dancing butterflies get a party in my stomach. And i know it’s you. I love  when they dances their own dance. In someway, i know you feel the same whatever you doing in this moment. I know, in someway you feel ours connection as i do. And i love this thin rope that unites us, everyday has growing more than ever. And we feel it. We feel ours closeness also if we didnt ever met eachother. This feeling is strongest, when i write on this ‘open diary’, and im sure this diary is ours big path that one day could make meet eachother for real. I continue to write these few lines, hoping you may read them,. And to the end you can meet my eyes, my heart and my soul. And in a whisper you can say me ‘finally you’re here’, touching on my face.


Here we alone


Where i can look at you with no shame and all my bottom desire. I look at you in this way, as you look at me. I see your soul calls me, and i listening to it, and i make no resistence. Dive myself into your eyes and together we get in our parellel world. While i touch on your shirt. I feel your heart begins to beats so fast as mine.
Everytime i start to write here, it’s a strange feeling. Our hearts and souls begins to melt eachother. My mind get melting with your and every sense around us explodes together. A warm sensantion embraces ourselves. Also if we are so far. Our  dancing butterflies dances their own dance and we let them dances. It means we get connect eachother in our parellel world, with no shame. And we love eachother more than ever. Do you love this feeling as i do?
My heart explodes and i imagine also your, with no to know where does it comes from. But we do. It’s just our connection. And this open diary is our path with this background music. We need to take our hands and to decide how we can meet eachother once again.
This path i’ve opened just for you. Listen to your heart and let guide yourself from your feeling. Then you’ll find me.



Just few


nod from you, makes me feel so happy as a child. Your eye (and your mole) give you me the right feeling to goes on in that lonely day i’m passing just with my thoughts. And my thoughts are all just for you. With few pic and minivideo you let me know you’re ok and maybe now you are with you parents to spend the holidays with them.
I just hope you rest yourself a little, before to continue to write your novel. And maybe you can read the letter i sent you few days ago. And maybe you will have time, but above all, the desire to reply to that stupid letter.
However, you have no idea, how you made me feel happy with this few instagram story.  I thinking about you.



I…Me and myself


I woud like to write something different about my feeling, but it’s so hard to me if you look at me in this way. I try.

Talk about myself?   Maybe really you dont know about me. Maybe you know about me just as the girl who fallen in love with you and you know about me as the girl who everyday thank you for everything you gave me. And that’s real.

However here i’m.

I consider myself a daydreamer and i think that if you believe in something with all your strenght to the end, you get it. And it was which happened among us. I’ve seen ‘something special’ in you, and it was real special.

Since i was born i had physical problems, especially with legs. Maybe you get my closiness to your Long John. Since i was born i had legs operations. So many to be a child of just a few months of life. I have many scars, to be a woman. Maybe that’s why i locked myself up in my bedroom and i dream about you.  Loving eachother with no shame.

Yes i had a story, but it finished 3 years ago. They were been 13 long years, but the lastest two years it was like we didnt love eachother anymore. So.

Thou I had my own experiences, but when you look foward and your target is so big. What do you do?  You must to think about other thing that you ‘could do’ with any problems. And i have a lot of problems. But surely i didnt ever give up myself. And which i wanted i got it even with  a lot of slowness. But what i got from you it’s that to the end you will reach to get what you want. And always with  slowness i think i’m reaching to you, And i feel you have something more than other people. I feel it inside of me.  And i’m sure you got something among us. Morever i’m sure you’re a sensitive person like me. What feel i hear everytime when you’re ‘close to me’ (online or tweeting), it’s very  strong. Maybe you think i’m a foolish girl, maybe not. Who knows.

With what i had in my life, my only way to express myself it was and it is, write. I love to write since i was a child. I express much better my feelings trought a pencil or a keyboard as im doing right now than with my voice. I have also problems with my voice since i was born. What girl! Yes too many problems… such problems!

My love to write is intuitive.

As you know, i also wrote a vampire novel. I did love write it. I spent nights and nights to write it on notebook. It’s a handwriting novel. Three big notebooks. My only regret it’s still ‘there‘, in my desktop drawer. Never thought to send it to a publisher. Maybe one day, or maybe it will remain there close in forever.

But the most important thing for me, right now is i’ve found you. You give me that ‘right’  push to improve myself everyday. Which i learnt from you it’s very important to me.

And for this and for other things i whisper you just that ‘thank’ i say, i think everyday, everynight when we are so close eachother, when we get connected in our parellel world.



Your  Daria