It was a bad dream, instead, it’s the reality. Tomorrow i’ll go into the hospital to make me remove the three pins i have in the leg.
You know, i dont have fear at all, but the hospitals reminds all my childhood and everything bad things i had in my life.
Maybe you’re the only one who can understand what i’m feeling in these hours, earlier to enter in that place.
I know, that it will be a simply operation, but for me just enter in a hospital it’s like enter in a hole full of thorns and snakes and, sure it isnt a good sensantion.
In these moment im whispering your name and our connection it’s making itself slowly stronger. I know, in someway, in a strange way, we are connected, and i know you have heard my whisper.
Stay close to me in these following hours more than ever.
I’ve told you, when i woke up myself from the last operation you was in my dream. I hope to feel your closeness also this time. Stay close to me. I need of your closeness despite we are very far. Take me in Our Parallel World. Let me dream for a while.
Of this room, i have putted on our music and slowly i feeling you are coming and sweetly you whisper my name. I can feel it and i can feel your eyes that sweetly are set on me.
You are whispering sweet words. Just my heart can feel them. They are the most sweet words my heart had ever felt. It’s beating hard, and our connection getting itself more strong. I close my eyes and i can see our parallel world there, in front of us.
I also, feel your embrace. You wrapping me tight, as if you dont want make me escape.
I whisper you ‘I dont ever escape from you’.
In you, i have found a world made of emotions, feelings that i never felt in my life, and you… you’re the most beautiful person i ever met.
In your eyes i can see all your sweetness that i always looked for, and now you’re here, in front of me.
How could i escape from you? You mean much to me, and in your deep, you know it.
Our Parallel World is the place that we are building together and in which i want to stay when our minds are connected one another.
How much i feel you close to me in these istants…. too much.
How can i start this my open letter? Just writing Thank You for everything.
Since is began this strange connection between you and me one year ago, i feel more open to receive only beautiful sensantions and i know that they are arrive from you.
I know, you’re thinking ‘It isnt possible’, but it’s so.
I repeated it alot many times. From when i done that dream, in which you have told me what which we know, it’s been like as if a door open itself in front of me and i have felt something inside and Our Parallel World, slowly was growed up around us, and im sure, you have softly, felt it too, even you.
This year, my emotions were been opened themselves more than usual.
The few times, that you have read my replies on your tweets and you have replied, you have make me feel so close to you, and this closeness has growed up each day more til arrive today.
I dont demand a reply from you. This would be too much. But i know in someways you will read this, not today, not tomorrow, but neither in a month, but im sure you will read it.
What which i want say, amongst of these words are few Thank you for everything, you having giving me, despite we dont still know us in person… but im sure we know ourselves trought Our Parallel World, much better than in other way.
You came by my side before the time, and i feel you next to me. You want say me something, when you will be ready, i will know it.
You are more sweet than usual, you’re embracing me sweetly and slowly. I feel it and you leave me without breathe, i close the eyes, sighing. My heart is beating hard. And i asking myself ‘Is it possible that is our parallel world’. I must give up myself, to these great emotions that i having and i know they are coming from you.
In someways, our parallel world get connecting us one another in another way inexpected. I shake my head, i still say myself ‘how is it possible all that it was born from a dream i’ve done one year ago and developed itself more always strong, in a intimate way during these months. What which you’ve said me in that dream it was the real reality, and then all these emotions, sensations were growing up so rapidly inside of me and they has become our parallel world, and now eachtime i feel you close to me i cant believe it, but it’s so.’
Maybe, for real, we had established a connection unconciously, and eachtime one of us, feel these emotions, these sensations inside, something happens, and it happens, by now daily, and everytime i dont feel these sensations, almost i feel lost. I need of these sensantions. They make me feel alive and i need to feel alive and you’re the only person able to give me these sensations, above all since from that dream i’ve done.
To write you an email, from i wrote my last part of my tale. My need to let you read this part it become important, more than the tale itself and i think i will do, even if you will doesnt read it or you will trash it. But in the life it must always to try, isnt? And i always try it and sometime i’ve succedeed to reach you
Maybe you will read this than my email, or maybe not. Who knows.
What i wrote in my last part of my tale, moved me, because i wrote what you would understand about me if you know me, for real and maybe you know me a little bit.
I will be a little crazy, but what i have in my deep, is a sincere feeling and i’ll never stop to whisper you ‘Thank you for everything you are giving me without you realizing’
What i begin to write, i really dont want make it finish.
I dived myself with you, in our perfect parallel world. Now what i feeling when we get connect us eachother is more strong.
I dont want leave that large room.
There, in someways, we had felt most of the biggest sensations we ever felt in our lives. Your gentilness has succeeded each limits.
I feeling you feel something like similar.
Should i close it o should leave an open door.
You are looking at me, i feel you.
I feel your whisper me ‘Let your feelings talk to you’.
Our parallel world doesnt must have borderline.
What i started to write, with you next to me, it will ever has no end, till our connection is so strong.
What i started to write here, it will continues. Maybe i will should collect, some thoughts, but im full of feelings for you and i will thank you, always.
No even, a fantasy tale could explain what i’m feeling right now. My heart is exploding, but if doesnt explode, i feel i could implode and all that it would disappears. So then, it explode. It’s a fight of sensations.
When i feel you close to me, in this way i can remain only breathless.
Some people can take me like a crazy, but i’m sure you would not.
Also if, we dont know eachother, you would believe me.
We have the same empathy, the same sensibility and in someway, we know eachother.
You are entered in my life, for the first time, for a case. Then, you have helped me a lot of times.
You have impersonificated my doubts, my thoughts, my fears, but slowly you have tought me that from those weakness, i could be more strong, and it’s been so. I lost the count of how many times i have said you thank you, and it still lasting.
Maybe we ever will not meet us, but with this open diary, i leave a door open, and who ever know, if a day you will knock it.
Other times you have knocked at my little windows…
I saw you in this picture, my emotions are exploded, and my tears went falling. I dont know what is happening. I have felt our connection has begins suddenly, and i wasnt able to hold back what was arounded me. I have know, it was like if you have whispered my name, as if you scream it, or in some ways you have talked about me. In some ways, i have felt you like a tornado of emotions that i’ve been not able to contain. And still now, i feel this sensation inside of me. As if you, despite what are you doing now, you want let make me know that you will be always with me in our parallel world. I have felt your closeness so suddenly and this made me drive crazy so much, that i’ve been not able hold back the tears. I stare at you, and i know, in some ways, you feel it. You know what i feel. It’s what you have wanted that i have feel. Is our parallel world so strong? Apparently it is. Now i feel you close to me, as if you are embracing me, and if i take a deep breath while i open my eyes, we are in front and you whisper me ‘Dont worry, we will be always together, till will does exist our parallel world’. And you smile me, drying me a tear that fall from my face. Slowly i take your hand and i place it on my heart, approaching me to you. You embrace me sweetly, while i hide my face in your chest.