My Long John Silver.
Another little operation at the leg, to remove the three pins i have inside my right leg.
I have a tangle in my stomach. I would like cry but i must be strong like Long John.
I sighing and i go foward like you.
It had to be done, from long time and now the time is arrived.
I will face up to my 10th leg operation with you in my heart and im sure i will feel your closeness while i will wake up myself from the operation as the last time.
When i’ve opened my eyes the first person in my mind was been you.
I feel, you are feeling me, cause in these moments im feeling you, and the vise in my stomach is changed, perahps you have read my tweet (who knows).
Now i feel your closeness growing up more than ever.
I feel you’re wrapping me.
That’s incredibile how’s our connection works.
Now i feel you so close to me, you’re next by my side. I can feel you’re whispering my name, and now i dont think about the operation, but just to you.
You have pulled me in our parallel world and now everything is disappeared.
We are just only us, embraced one another.
You dont how much you’re important in these moments of my life.
As if was yesterday how it’s began our strange connection, and slowly was growed up, always more, each day. And now we are at this point.
It’s began with little signals, then that dream and what you have told me. I didnt wanted believe it, but i did some research, and everything was real.
Now it’s passed an year and i feel your closeness more stronger than before.
Sometime i sigh, because i still dont believe it’s happening for real.
Slowly we have etablished a contact, despite our real distance. If i talk about that to someone, for sure, they can think i’m crazy, but im not crazy. I feel there is something.
I open myself freely just with you, trought this diary, if ever you will read it you would know im telling my very deep feeling i have for you.
And if i rembember how it has began all this i can shake my head, and everything is still continue.
I must take a deep breathe to calm my heart that is beating like a crazy.
Days i feeling my vise in the stomach get bigger and bigger.
I feel our parallel world wants us inside of it. I feel your hands stretching toward me and you pulling me inside with you.
These sensations arounding me, and in someways, i feel, they reaching from you. Our minds are connecting in strong way.
The vise is more tangled than ever. Our little eletric shocks, are more present in these hours. I can feel your whisper my name from far. Each time you pronouncing my name i have a thud in my heart, and you know it.
I can feel your embrace. Your arms wrapping me and everything i can do is, close my eyes and take a deep breathe.
My heart is going crazy.
You need me as i need of you. The only thing is, close the eyes and stretch our hands. Only in this way, we can touch ourselves despite our distance…
My vise in stomach is about to explode.
Tell me you feel the same i feeling.
When i was woke up myself that i feel you in an intimate way, close to me. I have already in my mind the continue of my tale.
In these hours, between what im feeling and my imagination, our parallel world is wide open and i see you inside of it, and my heart is beating like a crazy.
Our closesness is tangible in these hours. We only, us can feel it, we can feel our touches. I can feel your hands touching me softly and you know i could, also faint.
Your whispers around me and the only thing i can do is leaving me transport in our parallel only with your words.
Our minds are get connecting ourselves in such strong way, that i can hear your deep voice, despite our real distance.
Closing my eyes i feel you.
My hands are shaking on this keyboards. Our connection is strong, we can feel it.
I must take a deep breathe. I feel your embrace.
You’re here by my side.
I love you
This picture, isnt the the Bones & Skull glass i see. But the shack in background. Each time i see it, i have a thud in my heart. It’s incredible how your lastest pics/videos you did, they filmed that shack, and how each time i see it, im shocked myself. Cause i been in that shack, despite never been in your house.
I rembember exactly each thing from that dream.
We were there.
You sang with your friends. I heard you, also sing, for real, time later, and you sing very well, and everything coincides perfectly, and if i think to all this, i can also drive crazy, you can bet it. And i asking myself if everything this is part of our parallel world or not. I think yes. Everything is part of it, and we are realizing all this slowly, but it’s so.
Slowly we are approaching ourselves and it will arrive the time, without realizing that, we will collide ourselves, and at the end our glances will meet themselves and the only thing, we could do, will to smile whispering our names.
From your knees. You have took my hand to better help me and i have holded it and i have whispered you ‘Come’.
You have looked at me with your eyes. You knew what i would do, but you didnt say nothing, you have only followed me.
Hands in hands, we stopped ourselves in front a little bowl where you had the keys of our appartment and with a sweet glance i have looked at them. You have took them. In front of the grey door, we stopped ourselves, for a minute. We looked at us, one another.
While you have inserted the key in the keyhole, we have took a deep breathe and we didnt take off our glances, one from another. We sighed hard. Were we ready to make this step? We didnt knew it. We would had discover it, only crossing the borderline.
Our hearts were about to drive crazy, and would explode at any time, if we didnt would open that door. We would stared that heavy grey door for several minutes.
You was looking at me, while you was turning the key and when we have saw that the door slowly was opening, we had took a final deep breathe and we have opened definitely the door and we came out.
We been pushed out, as if a magnet attracted us to it. The building where was our appartament, was remained the same, but now the other appartments didnt exisited no more. The rusty gate was there. We were there, in front of it. As always was closed.
You said me, smiling ‘ I will would fight to open it’. On the contrary, when you have inserted the other key, the gate opened itself easily
We were had to overcome still, that invisible bordeline that it didved ourselves from that magic world that we were observing standing, from that rusty gate.
We holded our hands tight, looking in front of us. We were breatheless.”
⇐“What we were
“We had to ⇒
How i felt you close to me, inside of me. You was close to me, you holded my hand when i was at the medical office to make the x-ray to my leg.
My vise on the stomach has growed up suddenly, and i knew was you.
And also now, im back at home writing here, i feeling you close to me.
I take a deep breathe and i can see your shadow around me, i can hear you whisper my name, and me i whisper your name, and our parallel world open itself and, trought it, we can stretch our hands and we can touch ourselves, sweetly.
Our glances meeting themselves, and slowly we approaching ourselves one another, closing our eyes we can feel our lips leans eachother on ours mouth.
You’re the first. Your kisses leave me, always without the breathe.
Despite our real distance, i can feel your passion.
You are loving me sweetly.
Is beating like a train, from last night, and i feel you here around. Our connection is get stronger and stronger and my thoughts are toward to you and you can feel them.
We are in our parallel world. From last night we are in strong connection. We can feel eachother, despite our real distance.
Nobody take me off from my head, that last night, you have took a look here. Almost never i wrong. My sensations growing more in these hours.
Now you’re sleeping, but something says me our bond is growing up more in these hours.
I have seeing again that shack** and it reminded me my very first dream i done. You sang there with your friends and then you have presented me to them. What great emotions. And the incredible thing was that i seen that shack only severals months after.
I will be who i am, but it’s a incredible thing.
And now, from last night, i feel our closeness stronger. Our minds are connected themselves in strong way.
More the time passing by, more this feeling is wrapping me always more. And i feel, you feel this sensation too. I close my eyes and i can see our lights melt themselves, one in another.
My emotions are reaching you, like a caress, touching your heart.
Than me. I had to stop what i was doing to write here. From i was woke up i had felt your closeness and in these istants has esploded inside of me like a train that pushed me foward toward to you. I i close my eyes and i can see, we are in front one another.
My heart is exploding and i feel your closeness more than the other times. I feel you inside me and you are making me thrill. Our connection is getting bigger and bigger.
I know it’s our parallel world. We are inside of it. I can feel your breathe. Perhaps you’re dreaming about me and our connection is so strong and i feel floating with all my emotions that are going crazy.
My vise in my stomach is strong is stronger than ever. My heads is about explode.
Maybe you have took a look on what i wrote and that’s why i feel so strange in these moments. Thats why i had to stop to do what i was doing to write what i feeling.
You are here. I feeling your closeness more than the other moments. I feel you’re whisper my name more than one time. Im here. I closing my eyes taking a deep breathe.
I stretch my hand. you can take it. Im here.
You dont know how much we are close eachother.
Are coming and i feel that slowly you are arriving behind me and you almost lift me from my chair, with your embrace. I smile and i close my eyes while you are turn me around. We get connecting ourselves one another fast. Our parallel world is inside of us. Despite we are so far, when it opens in front of us, we stretch our hands and we can touch ourselves, and our connection make always more strong.
Our feelings are like threads that crossing eachother and our bond each day is passing by is there, and we can feel it inside of us.
My vise in the stomach is getting bigger and bigger and i know, in someways, your are think of me.
You’re smiling to me, my heart can feel it and this emotions make me feel always more alive.
I close my eyes for a second. My fingers shaking on this keyboard. I feel your closeness, despite we are so far.
I feel you are close to me in these istants i writing in this open diary. I still feeling you, almost lift me from this chair with your embrace.
I must to close my eyes. I can feel you whisper my name.
My heart is exploding.