Here in this silence room, what i feel is your closeness stronger than ever.
Since i woke myself i’ve felt you, by my side, and what i’ve seen after it was beautiful. Maybe that wasnt you, but something told me, that was you, and few times i’ve wrong.
And my vise in stomach get connect with my exploding head.
I dont need to close my eyes, but i do. Because i need to feel your closeness more closer. And what i feel is our parallel world get connect us, one of another, despite our distance, our real distance.
What i feel in this moment is your sweet embrace, from behind with you sweetest whisper ‘I will be always with you, in our world we exist only us’.
While you say me this, your lips touch my neck many times. You make me drive crazy.
Slowly you turn me. And in front one of another, we dive ourselves in our glance. Both, we touch our face so sweet. In this atmosphere so magic, our lights begins to floating around us. And we dont take off our eyes, one from another. Slowly, you approach me, and you lips touches mine, sweetly, that our senses makes us feel so in love, one for another.
By now, the coincidence aint no more coincidence. And when feel my vise in stomach get stronger and stronger and i feel you so close to me, it’s our parallel world wants say us something more. When i see again that visualisation, while i seen you around on your favorite social, i made me myself a lot of questions but surely they werent important. It was important though, how i’ve felt you close to me. And how i feel you by my side, right now. When i was in the pool, it was like as if you was really by my side and you have hold me tight, as if you wouldnt want let me going away from you. I have felt your closeness much to close my eyes and i have take deep breath several times.
As now, if i close the eyes i can feel your hands on me. Your soft hands, but above all i can feel your eyes on me, and my head is exploding, as my flows that are coming to you and our connection begins. Despite we are far, one from another, we feel close. I feel your hands travel trought my body, and they stop on my chest trought this soft t-shirt i have on, and i feel your touch so gentle. ‘Close your eyes’, you whisper me. With all your lightness, slowly you lift me in the air, while you smiling me, you make slide me on your body. Im all yours. And that’s i like it. Our minds in connection and our feelings out of control. We close our eyes and we are together, despite our real distance.
I start to write you, our parallel world open its gates, and i see you already there. I approach you. While, i come to you, slowly, i close my eyes. I feel your scent in the air. In front of you, i whisper you ‘Look at me’. Your eyes are towards me, and in that exact moment, something in our hearts, in our souls, exploding. We are in front, one of another. We dont take off our eyes, one from another. Our scent mixing up. I feel yours and you feel mine. We are so close, that almost our bodies touches eachother. I place my hand on your chest, and what i feel is the softness of your shirt. I must take a deep breath to dont remain breathless. While i do that, you make slide my hand in your shirt, and you make me feel your other hand that slide on my hip. ‘You make me drive crazy’ i whisper. You look at me, caressing my face. And another whisper answers. ‘I know it’. A moment in silence. It seems an eternity. And in that eternity it seems, as if we collect our emotions, that we have felt till now. We look at us, one in another, as if we in front for the first time. As if we are surprised by what we feeling for one for another. Our hands explore our skin. As if that shirt falls down from your shoulders to stay over your arms for the first time. We look at us, as if we are surprised on what is happening among us, while our hearts beat faster than ever. The only thing we can do, is let guide our feelings freely. I let your shirt, to falls down on the floor. While i do that, you slowly close your eyes. When you have your eyes close, i slowly approach to you. You dont realizing that, sweetly i have begin to kiss you in a way you never rembembered.
Think to all what is happening among us and how’s happening, my head turns like a spinning top and it doesnt stop. It turns fast and to close my eyes and taking a deep breath it’s a necessity to dont faint. Since when i’ve start to feel this strange connect with you, my perpeceptions has grow up faster. And i still surprised myself always more. My feelings, my thoughts towards to you, are always right. I dont want believe it’s just a my sensantion. But these sensansations i have had till now, didnt never wrong. When i feel my head explode, as in this moment, if i close my eyes, i can feel you here by my side. And not to be romatic, at any costs, but for real, i feel something link us. I’ve called it our parallel world. How to call it otherwise? My imagination can exceed some limits, but how come when i feel you have something to tell me, i feel it few days early. In these two days, i have had the perception of what you have would do, and you did it. How do you call this? And now my vise in my stomach is fighting against the continuos punch i feel.
I will be crazy, but these sensations are real, and despite we are far, one from another, i feel you so close to me, and i’m sure you are feel something like similar, there on the side of the planet.
And my head still turns like a spinning top
And you know it on other side of the planet, beacause you feel the same i feel right now. And we must close our eyes at the same times and in that same moment we can feel ourselves transport in our parallel world, despite we are so far, one from another. I see our parallel in your eyes and what which i feel is only your closeness here in my bedroom, while the music is on and my heart is exploding, In our world we are in front one of another and we dont take off eyes one from another. What i feel is one of most big feel i ever felt in my life. And i feeling it with you. In your eyes what i see is a place where i would love to live. And your eyes let me do it. Your hand caress my face and mine touching yours, till touching sweetly your neo. I feel myself shake. My emotions overwhelm me. To be in this world we have created, since when our connect has began, is the most beautiful and magic place i’m in. And I still, wonder myself, if there is a minimum part of you feeling the same, that i feel in this moment, which im writing in this open diary. What is began few months ago among us, it’s still a wonderful mistery, and i dont want to reveal. What i feel, when i feel connect with you is the biggest feeling i ever had in my life. And if i must feel so, almost eachday, i’ll be one of the most happiest girl in the world. And if ever we will meet, we will know already what we will say.
Possible that i stil feel you close to me, despite our distance. Maybe you still thinking a little of me and that’s why, our flows are in a continuos movement between us. Or because in these hours, you, on the other side of the planet, me here alone with our music on, we are alone and our flows arrives more easily. We must need to do our little moves and we are in front one of another and the feeling we feel transport us in our parallel world. I need to close again my eyes, earlier to look at you. When i open them, you just caressing my face, mentioning me a shy smile. My heart explode among feelings and emotions. You can see them, trough my eyes. And when i place my hands on your chest, i feel your heart does the same. A whisper fly in the air ‘I havent had need of someone like you in this moment’. You look at me. These words. I remain so. Breathless, speechless. In these words all our lights begins to floating, while we touch eachother us our face, our skin. We dont take off eyes, one from another. We continuing to look at us. And really slowly, we approach, till to touch on our lips, without realizing it.