Is going a thousand. You arrived almost running and as a twirl, you have overwhelm me. I have felt you from far, and now you are here by my side. You’re embracing me strong.
My fingers shaking on this keyboard and what im feeling is only explicable to you, that you know, what i really mean. My head was exploded so, suddenly when i’ve felt you here close to me. My thoughts were been tangled, and now the only thought on my mind, it’s you. I can feel also your scent in the air, and i know isnt possible, but it’s so. That’s enough a little thing that link us, and our parallel world is ready to get connect us.
Now i can just write what i feel, but i assure you is something bigger than of the other times. And maybe, that dream i’ve made last night it’s only just another sign, that we feel us, despite we dont still knows us. But if as it was the contrary. By now, i dont surprise myself anything more. And only to you, i can say it, because i’m sure, nobody else would believe me.
You’re close to me, and i feeling it so, that you overwhelming me. And you know it, cause you feel it too.
Was exploding when your eyes were placed on that sheet, where i wrote that poem about you. You have read few words and suddenly you have raised your glance toward to me, while i was breathless and i was looking at you. Around us the people was talking, but it was as if we were been transportated in an other place. The other people seemed like ghosts who walked trough that bar looking for something they would never found. The only real persons we were us. We were arounded by something like a mystical aura. It seemed that it wanted protected us. I was look at you while you was reading the poem, and in meanwhile, my heart leaded a fleet of emotions, ready to fight.
Slowly you have placed your hand on mine that it was on my leg. In that moment i’ve thought to escape… run away as faster as possible. I wasnt able to resist one more moment, but how i would could? I was there, with the most sweet guy i had ever met in my life, and he was reads one of my poem. I was look at him. He seemed completly dive himself, in what i wrote. And really he was.
Ocasionally you raised your eyes and you have launch some sweet glance to me. That reading seemed has no end. It seemed, as if you, want absorb each words that i’ve wrote.
Your handshake seemed more stronger to the end of the reading. Slowly, you have placed the sheet in the middle of my open diary, that it would be closed as soon the paper was left by you. After a suspended moment, where our thoughts met themselves, our glances met too. You was seemed speechless. I was more than you. You didnt ever have asked me who was the main character of that poem. You knew it already. Your hand still holded mine. And you eyes were on me. I felt myself die inside. Your hand was so sweet on mine.”
“For (5th part)
Is exploding, and now i cant hold back my tears from my face. Still i cant believe, what is happened again, among us. By now i can tell myself ‘I’ve told it to you’. Few days ago i have feel you, that you have try to say me something, and you have show me it few minutes ago. I’ve realized it that few istants after i’ve see your tweet. I dont really know what to think. My tears falling from my face. Here the emotions gets bigger and bigger. I’m a little in confusion. Are we really connect? Can you give some real sign of our connect, if not i go drive crazy. My mind is exploding, and now i feel you closer than ever. With you, eachday, is a new feeling. Despite our distance it’s like we are close, one of another. And i just cant believe it that is happening between you and me. I need to close my eyes and take a deep breathe and it’s better that i dont think it was happened once again, because i drive crazy for real.
All that is began last december, and it continue so fast, that i’ve lost the count.
I can say with all the certain i have, that our parallel world isn’t only a world of imagination that i’ve created, but it’s real, where our feelings and emotions, but above all where we existing only us, and in our parallel world we can tell us everything what we feeling.
My heart still exploding, with all my emotions, and i still surprise myself to what is happened few days ago, and one hour ago. I didnt believe to say that, but are these moments that i would like stay more by your side, taking your hands, maybe stay in silence, and listening to what does our hearts, ours feelings, have to say.
When you coming to me in this way. Your light illuminates me. And the only thing i feel is you. My vise is stronger. My only desire is you, and what which you feel, it’s the same. I close my eyes, but it was enough to look at you, and our parallel world exploded around us. In our world we are only us. What which we feel for us is just our minds get connecting one of another. If we close together, ours eyes, what which see is this continuos flow of energies. They coming and going. My heart, is fill of yours emotions. And you do the same with mine. We are in different places, but when we look at up the sky, whispering ours names, we feeling us closer than ever.
Right now i’m feeling you close to me. Continuosly, our flow get connect us, and what which we feel is in the air, but above all in our souls, in ours hearts. What which i feel for you, is growing up each day it pass.
When i think about our emotions, what which we are feeling while we writing, it’s the same, i only must take a deep breath, and i think, what we will say to us, the day we will meet us for real, if we living the same feelings in this moment, and despite our distance, we feel the same emotions. Are we souls mate?
Caress, you was here, next to me, when i was on the couch. And you was here by my side and you’ve caress me. I felt you. And now you’re here. Looking at me with this your glance, almost lost. Lost in your thoughts. Lost, but so close to me. What do you think? Do you feel the same emotions i’m feelings right now. If i close my eyes i feel your breath make it slowly fast, and i can hear your whisper in my ear. You are behind me. I feel your hands hold my hips. I breathless, i smell you skin. Slowly i turn and i see your eyes. You metioning me a shy smile. ‘What do you feel?’ i whispering you. You looking at me in silence. You taking my hand on your chest. ‘The same you feeling’. Our glances sparkling and we enter in our parallel world.
What i feel when i feel connect with you is an inexplicable feeling. I feel our thin rope gets shorter always more, and eachtime i feel this sensantions, i think something special will happens between us. That thin rope, as i called it, maybe is our parallel world. And my emotions makes bigger and bigger eachtime i feel you so close to me. I never felt something like this till now. Then now that you let me know ‘you like what i wrote’ this feeling has grow up more. Yes i know, it’s a stupid thing, but what i feeling it’s true. What i began to feel last december and what has happened, aint just coincidence. What i feeling, you feel it the same, maybe in other way.
I still wondering myself about what i feeling when i feel you so close to me. I miss breath, and for real i must take a long a deep breath to dont remain breathless or speechless, when, in some way, you’re next to me. Like now. But in other way, i miss you. I know, this open diary, i opening my heart, my feelings, my emotions, to you, but, maybe it will reach one day, it will be not more enough. What i will do, that day. I really dont know. Maybe it will never reach. We will would meet us already, who know.
Tll that day, i will continue to write to you in this open diary.
Ours connection still stunning me always more. How is it possible i feel you and right after you’re there next to me, by my side, telling me something, taking my hand. And your glance in mine. How is it possible ours connection takes us to ours parellel world, where ours light cant wait to melting eachother in a crazy dance. And we look at up ours eyes to see this dance. We remain speechless, but ours hands hold eachother so tight. And ours eyes look at eachother.
Together we take a deep breath, closing ours eyes and right after we are in front. A whisper from you ‘I really need of you, i need to feel your closeness’. I look at you and i touch on your face. Your soflt skin drives me crazy and you take me my hand to kiss it gently. While you doing, i dive myself into your glance and i touch on your face. My heart beats so faster than ever. Taking my hand to your chest, i can feel yours heart beats like mine. Like a crazy one. We look at us. In this way. We remain in this way for a while. How many things we would like to say us. But ours feelings are bigger than words, and we remains motionless in front of us. Eyes in eyes. Faces in ours hands and just ours breath. A kiss.
I close my eyes, and my lights reaches to you. For a while you seem, breathless. You’re attracted by my lights. You, also can hear my whisper in them. I’m calling you and this music we are listening to, despite ours distance, make us closer more than ever. My lights attracting you. And now my mind, my heart, my soul are towards you. In the distance i feel you coming to me, and at the same time we close ours eyes, while ours lights melting eachother. Ours istinct tell us to open ours eyes and now we’re in front of eachother, in ours parellel world . Your glance in mine and you smile at me with your ‘special smile’, and i drive crazy for it. You know it. Your remain in this way for a while. Eyes in eyes. You make me blush. I feel my face becoming all red. You smile at me and you whisper me ‘I love your genuineness’. I look down, but you take my face and once again your glance in mine. My face is in your hands, your soflt hands. and me too i take your hands, we look at us eachother, with no add any words, we kiss us in a sweetly way.
At us eachother, and what we feel is just ours souls melting eachother. I look at you and my only question is ‘what do you see, when you look at me’. In this your glance i see your desire to escape from this world to come in ours parellel world and stay in for long time. And stay in there just to stay embrace with me. In my arms, and you feel my hands touch on your skin trought your shirt. And maybe you hold my hand on your heart. And your eyes in mine and just few whispers that leave us breathless. In these whispers words you didnt say to anybody else, but me. And with these words you leave me speechless and my heart stop to beat for a while. I look at you and in a silence long a life, ours glances meets eachother. And right after ours eyes are into eachother and, suddendly, you sit up, you take my hand, you look at me and i see something magic in your glance. You whisper me something it leaves me breathless ‘Do you want to stay with me…forever?’
I take a long breath, while i close my eyes, i feel your lips touches my mouth so softly. Again a whisper ‘Stay with me’.
You drive me crazy, i tell you. When i woke myself this evening i didnt feel you. I told my self ‘It’s normal. i cant feel you every hours of the day’. But now from an hour if i close my eyes i see you here next to me. You stretch your hand towards me. And i take it. Your skin is very soft. And i whisper you ‘I love your skin, so soflt’. Your glance for me. I blush for a while A little smile for me and your hand on my face. My emotions making bigger and how i feel you close to me in this istant is very impressive. My heart beats so faster, but it seem motionless. I take a long breath and i close my eyes. Just in this way goes on. You’re so far away from me, but you’re the only person i really need close to me. Also if we are in silence just lookin ours glances. We really need of few things to feel us close eachother. Ours glances, ours parellel world, ours feelings.
able to leave me breathless. And eachtime i say myself ‘take a long breath’, but as always you leave me speechless. Once again you did it. Also with a simply smile like this one. But you did something more, and you know it. And i know what im doing here, here in this open diary, it’s the right way to reach to you, and nobody leave me this from my head. I know you know about this diary and nobody leave me the idea that among these visualizations from Austraila there is yours. It was from two days that i didnt feel you close to me, and from today, like a blow in my stomach, i feel you as you was here next to me. And now i came in my bedroom and checked the statisticscs of my diary and i seen Australia, my heart began to beats like a crazy one. How is it possible? Are we really connected eachother? I must surrender myself to this? Or i must make some resistance? If ours parellel world does real exists, i surrender to it and i close my eyes til i dont meet yours and you take my face in your hands and you whisper me ‘open them’. And we in front of us, we touch on ours skin. Just looking at your glance, i whisper ‘You’re here’ and i cant hold back some tears. Eyes in eyes, you whisper me ‘I’ll be here, for you. with you. Always’.