Is exploding, and now i cant hold back my tears from my face. Still i cant believe, what is happened again, among us. By now i can tell myself ‘I’ve told it to you’. Few days ago i have feel you, that you have try to say me something, and you have show me it few minutes ago. I’ve realized it that few istants after i’ve see your tweet. I dont really know what to think. My tears falling from my face. Here the emotions gets bigger and bigger. I’m a little in confusion. Are we really connect? Can you give some real sign of our connect, if not i go drive crazy. My mind is exploding, and now i feel you closer than ever. With you, eachday, is a new feeling. Despite our distance it’s like we are close, one of another. And i just cant believe it that is happening between you and me. I need to close my eyes and take a deep breathe and it’s better that i dont think it was happened once again, because i drive crazy for real.
All that is began last december, and it continue so fast, that i’ve lost the count.
I can say with all the certain i have, that our parallel world isn’t only a world of imagination that i’ve created, but it’s real, where our feelings and emotions, but above all where we existing only us, and in our parallel world we can tell us everything what we feeling.
My heart still exploding, with all my emotions, and i still surprise myself to what is happened few days ago, and one hour ago. I didnt believe to say that, but are these moments that i would like stay more by your side, taking your hands, maybe stay in silence, and listening to what does our hearts, ours feelings, have to say.
When you coming to me in this way. Your light illuminates me. And the only thing i feel is you. My vise is stronger. My only desire is you, and what which you feel, it’s the same. I close my eyes, but it was enough to look at you, and our parallel world exploded around us. In our world we are only us. What which we feel for us is just our minds get connecting one of another. If we close together, ours eyes, what which see is this continuos flow of energies. They coming and going. My heart, is fill of yours emotions. And you do the same with mine. We are in different places, but when we look at up the sky, whispering ours names, we feeling us closer than ever.
Right now i’m feeling you close to me. Continuosly, our flow get connect us, and what which we feel is in the air, but above all in our souls, in ours hearts. What which i feel for you, is growing up each day it pass.
When i think about our emotions, what which we are feeling while we writing, it’s the same, i only must take a deep breath, and i think, what we will say to us, the day we will meet us for real, if we living the same feelings in this moment, and despite our distance, we feel the same emotions. Are we souls mate?
Caress, you was here, next to me, when i was on the couch. And you was here by my side and you’ve caress me. I felt you. And now you’re here. Looking at me with this your glance, almost lost. Lost in your thoughts. Lost, but so close to me. What do you think? Do you feel the same emotions i’m feelings right now. If i close my eyes i feel your breath make it slowly fast, and i can hear your whisper in my ear. You are behind me. I feel your hands hold my hips. I breathless, i smell you skin. Slowly i turn and i see your eyes. You metioning me a shy smile. ‘What do you feel?’ i whispering you. You looking at me in silence. You taking my hand on your chest. ‘The same you feeling’. Our glances sparkling and we enter in our parallel world.
What i feel when i feel connect with you is an inexplicable feeling. I feel our thin rope gets shorter always more, and eachtime i feel this sensantions, i think something special will happens between us. That thin rope, as i called it, maybe is our parallel world. And my emotions makes bigger and bigger eachtime i feel you so close to me. I never felt something like this till now. Then now that you let me know ‘you like what i wrote’ this feeling has grow up more. Yes i know, it’s a stupid thing, but what i feeling it’s true. What i began to feel last december and what has happened, aint just coincidence. What i feeling, you feel it the same, maybe in other way.
I still wondering myself about what i feeling when i feel you so close to me. I miss breath, and for real i must take a long a deep breath to dont remain breathless or speechless, when, in some way, you’re next to me. Like now. But in other way, i miss you. I know, this open diary, i opening my heart, my feelings, my emotions, to you, but, maybe it will reach one day, it will be not more enough. What i will do, that day. I really dont know. Maybe it will never reach. We will would meet us already, who know.
Tll that day, i will continue to write to you in this open diary.
Ours connection still stunning me always more. How is it possible i feel you and right after you’re there next to me, by my side, telling me something, taking my hand. And your glance in mine. How is it possible ours connection takes us to ours parellel world, where ours light cant wait to melting eachother in a crazy dance. And we look at up ours eyes to see this dance. We remain speechless, but ours hands hold eachother so tight. And ours eyes look at eachother.
Together we take a deep breath, closing ours eyes and right after we are in front. A whisper from you ‘I really need of you, i need to feel your closeness’. I look at you and i touch on your face. Your soflt skin drives me crazy and you take me my hand to kiss it gently. While you doing, i dive myself into your glance and i touch on your face. My heart beats so faster than ever. Taking my hand to your chest, i can feel yours heart beats like mine. Like a crazy one. We look at us. In this way. We remain in this way for a while. How many things we would like to say us. But ours feelings are bigger than words, and we remains motionless in front of us. Eyes in eyes. Faces in ours hands and just ours breath. A kiss.
I close my eyes, and my lights reaches to you. For a while you seem, breathless. You’re attracted by my lights. You, also can hear my whisper in them. I’m calling you and this music we are listening to, despite ours distance, make us closer more than ever. My lights attracting you. And now my mind, my heart, my soul are towards you. In the distance i feel you coming to me, and at the same time we close ours eyes, while ours lights melting eachother. Ours istinct tell us to open ours eyes and now we’re in front of eachother, in ours parellel world . Your glance in mine and you smile at me with your ‘special smile’, and i drive crazy for it. You know it. Your remain in this way for a while. Eyes in eyes. You make me blush. I feel my face becoming all red. You smile at me and you whisper me ‘I love your genuineness’. I look down, but you take my face and once again your glance in mine. My face is in your hands, your soflt hands. and me too i take your hands, we look at us eachother, with no add any words, we kiss us in a sweetly way.
At us eachother, and what we feel is just ours souls melting eachother. I look at you and my only question is ‘what do you see, when you look at me’. In this your glance i see your desire to escape from this world to come in ours parellel world and stay in for long time. And stay in there just to stay embrace with me. In my arms, and you feel my hands touch on your skin trought your shirt. And maybe you hold my hand on your heart. And your eyes in mine and just few whispers that leave us breathless. In these whispers words you didnt say to anybody else, but me. And with these words you leave me speechless and my heart stop to beat for a while. I look at you and in a silence long a life, ours glances meets eachother. And right after ours eyes are into eachother and, suddendly, you sit up, you take my hand, you look at me and i see something magic in your glance. You whisper me something it leaves me breathless ‘Do you want to stay with me…forever?’
I take a long breath, while i close my eyes, i feel your lips touches my mouth so softly. Again a whisper ‘Stay with me’.
You drive me crazy, i tell you. When i woke myself this evening i didnt feel you. I told my self ‘It’s normal. i cant feel you every hours of the day’. But now from an hour if i close my eyes i see you here next to me. You stretch your hand towards me. And i take it. Your skin is very soft. And i whisper you ‘I love your skin, so soflt’. Your glance for me. I blush for a while A little smile for me and your hand on my face. My emotions making bigger and how i feel you close to me in this istant is very impressive. My heart beats so faster, but it seem motionless. I take a long breath and i close my eyes. Just in this way goes on. You’re so far away from me, but you’re the only person i really need close to me. Also if we are in silence just lookin ours glances. We really need of few things to feel us close eachother. Ours glances, ours parellel world, ours feelings.
able to leave me breathless. And eachtime i say myself ‘take a long breath’, but as always you leave me speechless. Once again you did it. Also with a simply smile like this one. But you did something more, and you know it. And i know what im doing here, here in this open diary, it’s the right way to reach to you, and nobody leave me this from my head. I know you know about this diary and nobody leave me the idea that among these visualizations from Austraila there is yours. It was from two days that i didnt feel you close to me, and from today, like a blow in my stomach, i feel you as you was here next to me. And now i came in my bedroom and checked the statisticscs of my diary and i seen Australia, my heart began to beats like a crazy one. How is it possible? Are we really connected eachother? I must surrender myself to this? Or i must make some resistance? If ours parellel world does real exists, i surrender to it and i close my eyes til i dont meet yours and you take my face in your hands and you whisper me ‘open them’. And we in front of us, we touch on ours skin. Just looking at your glance, i whisper ‘You’re here’ and i cant hold back some tears. Eyes in eyes, you whisper me ‘I’ll be here, for you. with you. Always’.
In this moment is very hard to describe. Just that i feel you so closer than ever. And i feel you inside in my heart, but above all in my head. And i cant leave you, and surely i wont. You give me one of the most powerful feelings i feel in this period, began almost two months ago. And from i began to feel these emotions for you, my life, despite is a single life, is a full of wonderful emotions. And i from two months i feel really ALIVE. Also just when i look at your glance. And it’s strange because im sure you feel the same. I dont know the reasons i know that’s it. Ours parellel world is so closer than ever. Also if we’re so far eachother, ours souls are linked so strong eachother. And i dont know how or when we will meet us eachother, but my heart says me it will be soon, real soon and this open diary is just the right path.
In this way, like a blow i feel you so close to me. That’s incredible how you make me feel when, in someways, you’re around the corner, or in someways you stop yourself and your thoughts are towards to me. And i feel you in a istant inside of me. It was two days that i didnt feel so clos to me in this way. I’ve tried to call you to me, next to me but nothing. But now, that blow in my stomach it’s was like a bomb. My dancing butterflies began to dance their own dance like a crazy one. And now my thought are just for you. And whatever you doing a little part of yourself is thinking about me. And ours parellel world is opening their gates to let us enter. Immediately you take my hand to your heart and in a whisper you say ‘I missed you’. I look at your glance and my heart begin to start beats so faster than usually. ‘I missed you too’. We embrace us eachother so hard. You look at me and whisper me ‘Dont leave us no more’. I look at you in your eyes. I touch on your face, your skin. You do the same so kindly. We look at us so deeply. And taking a long breath, we melting us in a kiss. In ours touches, in our glances, with no say any words. Just us.