Are running faster, that i dont know what to think. I feel all that it comes from you, and it overwhelm me. The feeling i have feel till now, are changed, from the day to the night. The feelings im feeling im feel are stronger. Maybe im drive crazy, maybe not. I’m consider myself a reasonable person, and all what im feeling it’s like a new stuff. But i cant put away this: since when i was child, i have feel in situations that then, it were became real. I really i cant.
And what i’m feeling, when i feel you close to me, it’s like the same feeling when i was a child, but stronger. All that confuses me. And confuses me more the fact, that you’re the only person i confess all that. I feel you so close to me, in the most beautiful way, that i feel, i can open myself in this way, only with you. And i dont think to drive crazy, if one day will meet us i can express you all these emotions freely. And i believe, in a someway, you feeling, the same.
I know, i’m writing the same things from long time. But it’s what i’m feeling. I dont want a big public, for this open diary. I just hope these my few lines, one day will reaches to you, and you will understand all that.
Maybe our connect aint only fruit of my immagination. Maybe what im feeling and our parallel world, as i call it, it’s because there is a invisible line that unites us, and i have feel it, suddendly in that dream. And all that since that dream, it was expands. And our connect got bigger, also from the fact, that i had face to may physcal problems that also you have face to, in different way, but that you have understand, and in someways it unites us. Maybe it’s all this. Or maybe who knows, we will never knows it.
What i’m feeling in these hours, in these days, it’s something i cant explain neither to me. Your presence is a continuos flow of energies in my body. And your closeness is stronger. It has growing up more fast… I dont know what you feeling, but i know ours connection is over there, and in somewhere our parallel waits for us, to tell us something special. Your smile, your eyes, for me are something magic. Your eyes are our parallel world gates. When i feel you so close to me, lik now, i just only need to close my eyes and taking a deep breath to feel you here next to me. You looking at me and sweetly you taking my hands and we begins to fly among ours lights and our emotions.
Can i be sincere with you? If i think to everything happening between us, i cant hold back tears from my face. You giving me the most biggest emotions i’m living in this period, and i’m feeling so Alive. I must to connect myself with you and what i feeling is such beautiful. My words, my feelings, coming out so easily.. sometimes, often, overwhelms me. I feel, i need of you to feel myself Alive. And these few line i write each day, says what i feeling in these moment. I really need of you. I need of you and nobody else’s. You.
To write you again. What were been my sensations, my feelings. And you are here in front of me, with this glance, where i can lost myself.
I felt you was next to me, when i was on the couch. I felt you took my hand in yours. I felt your warm hug. I, also, imagined to stay embraced together. But i knew it wasnt real. But what i felt seemed so real. And now, right here, you around me. In your eyes i see, i feel something magic. I feel our parallel world becoming something real. You in front of me. You sweetly smiling at me. What we see around us are ours lights melting. I cant leave my eyes on you. Breathless, i put my my hand on your chest, and slowly you begin to kiss me in every part till to reach my lips, while i slide my hands into the shirt and in that exact moment my heart exploding, and what you see is a moltitude of colors, becoming a rainbow. Your lips touch me sweetly. For a second we remain eyes in eyes, without do further things. ‘We remain in this way’ someone of us say to the other one. Without add anything, we remain so enchanted for what we see and for what we feeling.
Caress, you was here, next to me, when i was on the couch. And you was here by my side and you’ve caress me. I felt you. And now you’re here. Looking at me with this your glance, almost lost. Lost in your thoughts. Lost, but so close to me. What do you think? Do you feel the same emotions i’m feelings right now. If i close my eyes i feel your breath make it slowly fast, and i can hear your whisper in my ear. You are behind me. I feel your hands hold my hips. I breathless, i smell you skin. Slowly i turn and i see your eyes. You metioning me a shy smile. ‘What do you feel?’ i whispering you. You looking at me in silence. You taking my hand on your chest. ‘The same you feeling’. Our glances sparkling and we enter in our parallel world.
What i feel when i feel connect with you is an inexplicable feeling. I feel our thin rope gets shorter always more, and eachtime i feel this sensantions, i think something special will happens between us. That thin rope, as i called it, maybe is our parallel world. And my emotions makes bigger and bigger eachtime i feel you so close to me. I never felt something like this till now. Then now that you let me know ‘you like what i wrote’ this feeling has grow up more. Yes i know, it’s a stupid thing, but what i feeling it’s true. What i began to feel last december and what has happened, aint just coincidence. What i feeling, you feel it the same, maybe in other way.
I still wondering myself about what i feeling when i feel you so close to me. I miss breath, and for real i must take a long a deep breath to dont remain breathless or speechless, when, in some way, you’re next to me. Like now. But in other way, i miss you. I know, this open diary, i opening my heart, my feelings, my emotions, to you, but, maybe it will reach one day, it will be not more enough. What i will do, that day. I really dont know. Maybe it will never reach. We will would meet us already, who know.
Tll that day, i will continue to write to you in this open diary.
from i woke up myself are strong. I feel you close to me. It’s like an alchemy among us and what i feel in these hours are inexplicable. And those visualizations from Australia, make me dream a lot and my thoughts are towards to you. I have the certain it was you. I feeling you so strong in me. My dancing butterflies scrambling my stomach. It’s really strange like ours connection unites us in this way. Yesterday i felt you a while distant. But today you’re always present, by my side. And anyboby leave me the certain it was you to see what i wrote in this open diary, just dedicated to you. My feelings are so strong today. And just when i feel you in this way i have the certain you’re close to me, by my side and you feel the same as i do in this istant. We get in ours parellel world. Ours magic world where ours feeling meets eachother. My heartbeat growing so faster and im sure your heart beats like a crazy.
Today my heart, my mind, my thoughts are just about you, and i’m so happy about that. You make feel happy also with just few sensations i feeling inside of me.
Wonder myself how you entering in me in this way, surprising me as the first the first time. I should be used to your way to get connect with me, but i dont. It’s always a bomb in my heart that explodes itself. And my feelings are sorrounded by your eyes, your soul, your look on me. And above all your hands. Your look on me. On everything i do, i write about you. My feelings growing more than ever. You’re always there, a step behind me. And im sure, if i fall, you would take me, and then you would smile at me. Maybe then you would kiss me kindly, and in this kiss we get in ours parellel world, where we can see eachoher with all ours love we have for ourselves. I’m sure, we know about eachtother, also if we never met eachother. We met here. In our parellel world, where ours feelings met themselves many times, and made our hearts beat hard in unison.