Since i (5th open letter to Luke)

lastsmileforte0011Woke up myself, that i feel you close to me, in a way, almost disconcerting.  You was here by my side all time. My thoughts has been towarded to you. I have tried to concentrated on another things, but my mind has always returned to you. And now that we are in front, my emotions can explodes. By now, what i feel you know it, and i know, when our glance meet eachother, our parallel world is here. My heart beating as a train from before. If i close my eyes i can feel your sweet touch around me. I can feel our sensantions floating around us, and slowly we get connect. In front one of another, i stare at you eyes. With your shy smile you make me feel one of the biggest emotion i have ever felt in my life. As i’ve told you many times, i cant collect all my emotions, when i’m with you, here alone. But what which i can say you it’s that you’re the only person with whom i can open myself, with no shame, and you’re the only person i really need in this period of my life that it lasting, by now, from 8 months. What i’ve felt in these months and it’s still lasting, it would be so hard to explain it to other people. When i arrive, here at this pc, in this open diary, as if i was for real, in front of you, and i begin to let my real feelings  free, hoping one day, you may read what i feel, what i dream and what i would like to whisper you, staring at you, maybe one in front of another, maybe while you caress my skin, while you embrace me, while we dont take off our glance one from another. Maybe while, face to face, you let me touch your neo. Maybe while we approaching us to kiss us endlessly.


Now you cant

daily162_forteHide youself no more. From today i have had the certainty that, you take a look on what i write on this diary. You know, you have scrambled me more than necessary. And now our parallel world is more closer than ever. What i feeling in this moment are our feeling get connect in easy way. And now i feel you so close to me that i cant imagine. I feel you here by my side as you are watching me what i write here, in this open diary. What i write now, is almost confuse, my feeling are confusing. My head is exploding and my vise in stomach get stronger and stronger.  To know you was taking a look on this, till now it was a dream, but what i seen, by now, from yesterday, it’s a dream cames true. And what you’ve read it was one of my open letter most felt i ever wrote. My head is exploding like a bomb. I repeat myself  ‘I just cant believe to all this’, but inside of me i can hear your whisper that says me ‘I’ve read almost all what you wrote.’ And my heart seems stops, for how it goes fast.
What i really need is only to whisper you ‘I love you‘.


My sweetest



As you’ve tell me, dont you give up, i did, and now i feel you are smiling to me, as in this pic. I dont know how explain my feeling, if not to write them, in this open diary. Each day, you make me feel happy, also just look at you, and i feel you here close by my side. If i close my eyes, i can feel your soft touch, and i feel your arms embracing me. It’s the most beautiful embrace i have had in my life. So soft, but at the same time, it makes me feel thrill me. I must to take a deep breath. While you arrive in front of me, we dont take off our eyes, one from another. Your hand caress my face. You can feel my heart beating so fast, despite we are far. But our parallel world it here for us. In of it, we can feel, we see us and we can explode together, and what we feel it’s only ours. Slowly i close my eyes and i imagine you sleeping, but in some ways your thoughts are towards to me, i feel it…. i feel you, and i love to feel these things, despite our real distance. You’re the only person i really need in this moment of my life, and im sure, you feel it too.