I cant (4th open letter to Luke)

bookpromoforteBreath if you stare at me in this way. I was thinking to write you something different, but it’s so difficult, if you stare at me so. My head and my stomach get in confusion, and i know, in some ways, you’re close to me. My confusion get connecting with yours and slowly our parallel world is waiting for us. If we both close our eyes at the same time, we can feel we touch, we taking our hands and slowly and together we enter in our world. Our sensations is expanding, and what we feeling is something we can only feel, when we are in this magic world. My heart starts to beat so fast and it seems it stops sometimes. I look at you and what i feel is something that i cant explain still to myself, but it’s the most beautiful emotion i ever have felt from long time. What i feel when i’m with you, alone, here in this bedroom, in front of this pc, where i can write everything openly, it’s beautiful. And i didnt still found the right words to describe it. Sometimes i stop myself. I try to collect all what i feel and i’m not able to. The only thing i can do is, to shake my head, taking the usual deep breath and to continue to stare at you, and wonder myself how much i feel your closeness, despite our real distance and the most important thing, you still dont know about me, as i wish. Sometimes i feel your closeness in a way that i must to stop, close my eyes, and i can feel your embrace. Like a punch in stomach, but a punch that makes me fly and make me think, that what we have created it’s real. From that night i have had that dream and you have said me, what we know.
That’s enough that each of us whisper our names and our connection get active itself, and what we feels is only ours. Maybe it’s only fruit of my imagination, but i dont want believe it. It’s too real. And the coincidences are became too many.

Daria

Those 10 minutes

instalukeforte0039Before that, i have checked your favorite social, you have post this one. You left me without words. I have thought you all time from this night, and you what do make me? You post this. I feel something it bond us so strong. I really dont know what is for real, but if it was our parallel world, i think it’s a something of marvellous. I really love what it makes us feel one from another, also if i really dont know if you feel the same i feel right now. I whisper you always a soft ‘Thank you’. What i feel when our parallel world get connect us, is just a wonderful thing, that goes beyond the normal feeling. I know, you’re sleeping, but in some ways i feeling your embrace… and that your shirt so, turn on all my desires, and you know which are. I slowly sigh, looking at you, and you know, how you make me feel happy but above all ALIVE. And you know, in this period how much i need to feel me in this conditions. I place my hand into your shirt, whispering you ‘I love you’, and you know which is my kind of love for you. I love you from the head to the stomach. A kind of love that goes beyond of the real defination of the love.

Daria

If only (A real Open Letter to Luke)

winnerslosers_forted You would understand what you make me feel, when i feel you here close to me, you would understand me, completly, and maybe i would understand what you feel when we get connect. Yes, i know, often i repeat myself, but when my vise in stomach get grow up, it isnt impossible to dont think of you. This sensantions is born, by now, from seven month, and by now, i know there is something among us, for sure unconditionally, but it’s strongly present. I never felt something like this, before. I don’t even call it love, because it’s beyond. I know it, you know it. We both know it. When we link us one of another, is an inexplicable thing. What it made me feel strongly link to you, it was that dream on you that i did, where you have tell me that thing, that i checked immediately after and i’ve kept for me  for months. Sometimes our parallel world, still overwhelm me, and i cant hold back tears. During this period, our connection, our parallel world is grow up with us. Together to our emotions, our feelings. I still surprise myself, when i feel when you try to say something and few days after, you leave you message on twitter. Ok, it’s true, as i’ve told you, since when i was a child, i could felt things that they would be come true, and that’s a fact. But with you! I never have imagined this stuff. 
When my head explodes, what which i feel is your closeness so strong, and the only thing i can do is take a deep breath and i must close my eyes, for dont drive crazy. When i feel your embrace, is the only thing i desire and i feel our parallel world get connect us, and im sure you feeling something like what i feel.  I know you, by now, from 6 years, and i ask myself ‘How is it possible all that is born only from seven month?’ Something has made click between us. I asking myself what? I’ve confessed you all my deepest thoughts, dreams, desires. I’ve sent you mails few times, maybe you have read them. You have start to know me. Maybe those incursions from Australia in this period and in the others, you are really, and you reading what i write you, and from this open diary, you have begins to know me a little more, and that sensibility you have, it was expanded and our connection is born trough what i wrote you in this open diary and from trough what i let you know.

Daria

Eyes in eyes

bluejacket_moltiplica0019And our parallel world explodes. As if we are in front, really. And our lights begins to floats arounds us. I know, you have somehing more to say me, maybe in a whisper. I look at you, and i cant hold my emotions, what im feeling is bigger than me and this flow that come and go from you, is so big that my heart cant contains it all. Also, this night, i was alone at home, and my thoughts were toward to you, i have feel your closeness, while i have had close my eyes. As if you was by my side and you embraced me, i was sorrounded by you, like in this moment, that i’m writing what i feel. Maybe i repeat myself, but im sure there is something among us, that link us one of another. And maybe we will never know what it is. More i look at you, in your eyes, i feel, that your eyes wants tell me something else. I see your shy smile and i give it back to you with the same shyness. And it wll seems strange to you, but each thing around me recall me to you. Maybe our parallel world wants say us something else more big, that we dont still understand completly. Each thing around me say me something about you, and i want to believe that the day we will meet will arrives as soon. In meanwhile i give you back my shy smile, diving myself in your glance.

Daria

My feelings

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Are running faster, that i dont know what to think. I feel all that it comes from you, and it overwhelm me. The feeling i have feel till now, are changed, from the day to the night. The feelings im feeling im feel are stronger. Maybe im drive crazy, maybe not. I’m consider myself a reasonable person, and all what im feeling it’s like a new stuff. But i cant put away this: since when i was child, i have feel in situations that then, it were became real. I really i cant.
And what i’m feeling, when i feel you close to me, it’s like the same feeling when i was a child, but stronger. All that confuses me. And confuses me more the fact, that you’re the only person i confess all that. I feel you so close to me, in the most beautiful way, that i feel, i can open myself in this way, only with you. And i dont think to drive crazy, if one day will meet us i can express you all these emotions freely. And i believe, in a someway, you feeling, the same.
I know, i’m writing the same things from long time. But it’s what i’m feeling. I dont want a big public, for this open diary. I just hope these my few lines, one day will reaches to you, and you will understand all that.
Maybe our connect aint only fruit of my immagination. Maybe what im feeling and our parallel world, as i call it, it’s because there is a invisible line that unites us, and i have feel it, suddendly in that dream. And all that since that dream, it was expands. And our connect got bigger, also from the fact, that i had face to may physcal problems that also you have face to, in different way, but that you have understand, and in someways it unites us. Maybe it’s all this. Or maybe who knows, we will never knows it.

Daria

 

Here you

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Are, and im in front of you like the first time of our connect. You giving me something i never had in my life. Our connect is strong more than ever. My thoughts are always more toward to you, and you are here. Aint like before. Sometime i had no feel you. Now, what i feel is your costant closeness, also when i’m not in front of this pc screen. It’s like you embrace me continuosly. My vise is always present as you. I dont really dont know where are you, but when i feel you, like in this istant, i know, you’re close to me, wherever you are and whatever you doing, maybe you are dreaming about me. And you feel my embrace, and you dream about our parallel world. Maybe it’s so. We are connect in our dreams, and our parallel world is dream that we are living trough our emotions, feelings. And all that, one day it will realize trough our real meet. In meanwhile we living this big dream that is began last december, with our first connect and it continuing trough all that we feeling, also in this moment.

Daria

I smile

mikemccluskie_sommaBecause i feel you close to me in a such way that i really love. I smile and i can see you smile me back. I know you look everything i doing in these hours. You’re in a corner and smile, almost proud of me. I feel you in this way. Our parallel world around us. And it gather all ours emotions we feeling in this moment. I feel you close to me more than ever. I dont want know what you’re doing, because, in someways, i know, your thoughts are towards to me. I know you’re smiling to me. My soul tells me it. And i feeling this emotions around me and i feel inside of this twirl you are in. I need to close my eyes and i can see you. I see your smile, your shy smile. And you know it make me drive crazy. It’s enough you approaching me, caress my face so sweetly and we enter in our parallel world kissing one of another.

Daria

In silence

luke0011_forteYou was here for all the time. Since i woke myself, till now. You woke me so sweetly as usual, embracing me. I have feel my vise in my stomach grow up so faster. I have whisper your name slowly, and i’m sure you have feel it, cause i have feel your closeness. Our parallel world didnt ever abbandonded me. Our feelings were been always close to us one of another.
What i feeling now, it’s a strange emotion, but always close to you. Maybe you try to tell something. I cant decipher it. But i can wait for, as usual. By now, i know, what are ours signals. And i know, we are connect, in this strange way, but that i have always love, since is began all that, in this bedroom last december. Maybe i’m the only one, who feeling this emotions, this connection among us, but in bottom of myself, i sure, you feel the same. You feel this same vise in your stomach, eachtime we connect. Also you dont know, where does it comes from, but in someways, you know it’s our parallel world, that it wants us unites, despite our distance.

Daria

I feel

books02soloscuri01Your smell in the air. You are coming. I’ve put on our music. Something it says me to close my eyes and take a deep breath. Slowly, i whispering your name. Like a light breeze i feel, you really slowly,  enter in this bedroom. ‘Dont turn’ you whisper me. I feel your arms around me. ‘Close your eyes’. I feel you are turn towards to me. Breathless i know, when i will open my eyes i will be dive myself in our parallel world trough your glance. And it is so. You take my face, you caress it, and slowly we both, we entering in our world, where it waits for us a world of moltitude colors, emotions, feelings, only looking at us one in another. Slowly i caress your face, and you mention a shy smile. Our lights, dancing between us, what which we feel is our feeling expands, in and out of us. What we can do is only look at us and stay in silence and touch each other, very sweetly. Your glance let me do what i wish. My game. And slowly it slide on your arms. You no say no words, and that rustle make me close my eyes, for a second. Biting my lips, i feel you are approaching to me. Next to me, slowly you turn me, feeling your bare chest against my back, you begin to kiss my neck, and your hands on my body. Our lights floating around us. Slowly you turn me again, and we are in front one of another. Ours glances into eachother. We dont move, but what which we need is only to touch on our face. A whisper ‘We need only of this’.

Daria

Like a

glance_moltiplica5Caress, you was here, next to me, when i was on the couch. And you was here by my side and you’ve caress me. I felt you. And now you’re here. Looking at me with this your glance, almost lost. Lost in your thoughts. Lost, but so close to me. What do you think? Do you feel the same emotions i’m feelings right now. If i close my eyes i feel your breath make it slowly fast, and i can hear your whisper in my ear. You are behind me. I feel your hands hold my hips. I breathless, i smell you skin. Slowly i turn and i see your eyes. You metioning me a shy smile. ‘What do you feel?’ i whispering you. You looking at me in silence. You taking my hand on your chest. ‘The same you feeling’. Our glances sparkling and we enter in our parallel world.

What i feel when i feel connect with you is an inexplicable feeling. I feel our thin rope gets shorter always more, and eachtime i feel this sensantions, i think something special will happens between us. That thin rope, as i called it, maybe is our parallel world. And my emotions makes bigger and bigger eachtime i feel you so close to me. I never felt something like this till now. Then now that you let me know ‘you like what i wrote’ this feeling has grow up more. Yes i know, it’s a stupid thing, but what i feeling it’s true. What i began to feel last december and what has happened, aint just coincidence. What i feeling, you feel it the same, maybe in other way.
I still wondering myself about what i feeling when i feel you so close to me. I miss breath, and for real i must take a long a deep breath to dont remain breathless or speechless, when, in some way, you’re next to me. Like now. But in other way, i miss you.  I know, this  open diary, i opening my heart, my feelings, my emotions, to you, but, maybe it will reach one day, it will be not more enough. What i will do, that day. I really dont know. Maybe it will never reach. We will would meet us already, who know.
Tll that day, i will continue to write to you in this open diary.

Daria