It was from few days, i’ve felt it, but i didnt tell anything, but when my little voice inside of me told me to check it, i’ve seen it. I didnt cant want believed to that. But is happened once again. My head has exploded like a bomb. What which i’ve feel it becames true, once again. But in these hours i feel your restlessness. I feel, you have didnt would like to do that moves, but, by now, you did it. I feel your thought are toward to this side, toward to our parallel world. I’m here, i wait for you, as always. And as always in these hours i feel you close by my side more than ever. How is it possible all this? I feel your thoughts, your doubts, your duties, but above all you desire to escape from this world, that, in some ways, it press you. From the other day, i feel you embrace me. This is your desire. To embrace me tight and what you’ve whisper me now, has a logical sense. My head explode, and also my vise in stomach. Now the punch i felt in these days is more significant. I’ll be here for you. You can tell me everything you want. Despite our distance, i’ll understand everything. I’ll be by your side, always.
Daria
In bed and i have feel you arrived slowly and you have lay yourself by my side and sweetly you have embraced me. Your chest against my back. For a moment i have believed you was really next to me, that i’ve had to open my eyes. Your arms arounded me so kindly. I have felt your light shirt on my skin. And now i feel your closeness, here, around me, here in my bedroom. You have never left me. In bed, you have began to call me. As if you scream my name. I have felt you. My head was exploded, and our flows has began to come and go from you to me. I’m here, for you. I feel, you try to say me something else, i feel it. I try to communicate with you trough this open diary. My feelings are exploding when i feel you close to me. And it’s incredible how we are so close one of another, despite our distance. It missing really few to our real meeting. Our parallel world gets bigger and bigger each day and that’s we feel. Our feelings, our emotions, what which we have inside for one for another it’s an inexplicable feeling, but it’s what we feeling from last december, when it’s began our connect.
And our parallel world explodes. As if we are in front, really. And our lights begins to floats arounds us. I know, you have somehing more to say me, maybe in a whisper. I look at you, and i cant hold my emotions, what im feeling is bigger than me and this flow that come and go from you, is so big that my heart cant contains it all. Also, this night, i was alone at home, and my thoughts were toward to you, i have feel your closeness, while i have had close my eyes. As if you was by my side and you embraced me, i was sorrounded by you, like in this moment, that i’m writing what i feel. Maybe i repeat myself, but im sure there is something among us, that link us one of another. And maybe we will never know what it is. More i look at you, in your eyes, i feel, that your eyes wants tell me something else. I see your shy smile and i give it back to you with the same shyness. And it wll seems strange to you, but each thing around me recall me to you. Maybe our parallel world wants say us something else more big, that we dont still understand completly. Each thing around me say me something about you, and i want to believe that the day we will meet will arrives as soon. In meanwhile i give you back my shy smile, diving myself in your glance.
Your smell in the air. You are coming. I’ve put on our music. Something it says me to close my eyes and take a deep breath. Slowly, i whispering your name. Like a light breeze i feel, you really slowly, enter in this bedroom. ‘Dont turn’ you whisper me. I feel your arms around me. ‘Close your eyes’. I feel you are turn towards to me. Breathless i know, when i will open my eyes i will be dive myself in our parallel world trough your glance. And it is so. You take my face, you caress it, and slowly we both, we entering in our world, where it waits for us a world of moltitude colors, emotions, feelings, only looking at us one in another. Slowly i caress your face, and you mention a shy smile. Our lights, dancing between us, what which we feel is our feeling expands, in and out of us. What we can do is only look at us and stay in silence and touch each other, very sweetly. Your glance let me do what i wish. My game. And slowly it slide on your arms. You no say no words, and that rustle make me close my eyes, for a second. Biting my lips, i feel you are approaching to me. Next to me, slowly you turn me, feeling your bare chest against my back, you begin to kiss my neck, and your hands on my body. Our lights floating around us. Slowly you turn me again, and we are in front one of another. Ours glances into eachother. We dont move, but what which we need is only to touch on our face. A whisper ‘We need only of this’.
Accompanied me in my bedroom, and now i feel you close to me. You’re around me. I feel our minds get connect, and as in an explosion, we enter together in our parallel world. My vise in my stomach is growing fast. And what i need to dont drive crazy is close my eyes, for a while. I feel you so close to me. My eyes are open. I’m here in this bedroom. Naturally you’re not with me physically, but how much i feel you by my side in ours own way. Sometimes i feel you, so close to me, that i cant hold back my tears. And that’s one these moment. I feel, you turn around me. We are in front one of another, in silence. We look at us. I bite my lips, looking at into your eyes. Our connection get us closer than ever, and ain’t love. It’s something goes beyond. I feel it. You feel it too. We are in this twirl of emotions, that we only can explain, just touching us one of another. We can only whisper one of another what which we feeling in this moment. You taking my hand to your chest. Your white soft shirt. I metion you a shy smile. You know how i love when you dress white shirts. Once again, i biting my lips. Without i dont realizing it, sweetly, you’ve slide my hand in your shirt, and that game it repeat. Millions of emotions around us, and what which we see in ours eyes is what we would say us.
I feel when you’re close to me, despite i know where are you now, it’s an inexplcable feeling. I feel your closeness make so strong, everytime my toughts are toward to you. And now i feel your next to me. What which i would like to is only to hug you and whisper you ‘How much i need you, how much i would like to be next to you’. And i’m sure, you can hear my thoughts, my feelings, and my emotions. You need to look at up the sky, and you can feel it. What i really need is to escape from this world, with you to enter in ours parallel world and stay with you, also without say nothing. I need to be embraced by you. Hearing your breath and dive myself in your eyes, what which i’m feel right now is the same you feeling, wherever you are and whatever you doing. I close my eyes and what which i feeling is you. You’re are with me. What which i feel is magnificient. And what which i’m feeling is only your presence by my side and that’s i really need it. Embrace me.
More than ever. My connection with you has becoming bigger everyday. My dancing butterflies dancing always more a crazy dance and my stomach has a node tighter and it melting when you are so close to me. And last night it was so tight and when you was next to me a beautiful sensations has pervaded me in a such beautiful way. And also when i woke up myself today, that sensation was still inside of me. I was asleep with your smille and you still here close to me. And this feeling what i feeling from last december it’s a wonderful feeling. I’m sure, in someways, you feel that strange feeling in your stomach, eachtime we connecting us and slowly we enter in ours parellel world. I see it trought it yours glance you giving to me. And i feel your closeness make it bigger everyday it pass.
You know make me drive crazy. Just looking at you with yours eyes closed you transporting me in ours parellel world i hear you while you whispering me sweet words, turning me around me, while i look at you speechless, breathless, hearing your voice and my hands touches you gently. You stop yourself in front of me. For the first time i see your eyes in mine and with just your glance you leave me breathless. Your eyes are the most beautiful thing in ours parellel world i see. And i take your face in my hand. You let me reach to your skin mole with my finger. I see all the magic of you in it. Throught it i feel your heart, see your soul and everything wonderful you have in. You take my hand and begin to kiss it softly. I remain hypnotized by your slow moves on me, on my skin. And my eyes are into yours. Few words in few whispers arounds us. Til to the end we look at us eachother without says any further words. Unawareness makes we close to us and face to face finally a lips touch. A kiss.
begins to beats faster and slowly you’re coming to me. I rembember how we left us late night. In the sweetest way. Your lips on my mouth. And now i feel you again so close to me. But in different way Inside of me and whisper ‘You can goes on’. You feel my hurts on my leg. I can see you eyes on me. You caress my face and take my hand and a whisper ‘I feel what you feel’. That’s only phrase gives me the strenght to look at you and mention a smile. You’re my only pirate of my heart, the only person who feels for real what are my feelings. Despite ours distance i feel… we feel eachother so close. And what i can say you is ‘Come to me, you no have idea how much i need you in this moment’. The only person i really need is you. Close own eyes and come in ours parellel, where you can heal my pain with just your smile just for me. Embrace me so tight. I want to stay like this in your arms.