Look at me in this way i just see ours parellel world in your eyes. And which i feel is strongest inside of me. Last night when i felt you in me and then suddenly you was apparead i thought it wasnt possible, instead it was you for real. I was breathless. I thought ‘How we are close to eachother’, despite ours distance. And also i write these few lines, in someways i feeling you by my side. So close that, someways, my heart beats so faster and i hold back my tears. Looking at you i can smell your skin. I can touch on your white shirt you have on. And you let me do it with no any resistance. Divin myself in your soul, i can feel your heart beat as mine. So slowly that white shirt falls down on the floor. For a while, its rustle drives me crazy. Dont move yourself. Just continue to look at me with those eyes, and you can hear to my breath makes itself always more faster. You take my hand to your chest and… a whisper ‘Do you hear it?’ Your heart beats as mine. We get connecting eachother. We are in ours parellel world. Together. As we want. As we desire. Just like this.
I felt today i didnt ever hear so stronger. It was like a bomb exploded inside of me. I was doing other things and suddendly you was in me, next to me. As now, that i’m start to calling you and i start to feeling you. I love this ours connection. I just need to begin to write few words in this open diary and i begin to feel your closiness. If i close my eyes i can feel your presence by my side. If i close my eyes, i can feel you take your hand on my shoulder and i can see you mention a smile. I feel you caress my face and turns this chair to you. You kneeling in front of me. Taking my hands. And one of these you take to your chest and with a whisper you say me ‘Can you feel it?’ Throught your t-shirt i just can feel your heart beats faster as mine. We look at eachother into ours eyes, for a while. That moment suspended. Where we get eachother in our parellel world. That moment where we get everything about ourselves. About ours feelings for eachother. Where we get ours smiles can say everything with no say anything. Dive ourselves into ours look and we remain speechless, breathless. We can just touch ourselves with just our hands. I take your hand to my chest whispering ‘Can you feel it?’ My heart exploding. You embrace me so strong. ‘Please stay in this way forever’ i say you.
But first you look at me so kindly then you kiss me so tender.
So in this way, in our parellel world. So close to eachother.
Now is that i begin to feel you. Slowly but i do. Which matter is you begin to feel me. Whatever you doing, stop youself. Looking around you. Look up at the sky and thinking about to something is in your heart. And you are aware to know what is. It’s me, im calling you. Inside of me, i know, you feel that strange feeling, as i feel it.
Since we entered in new dimension of our parellel world, our connection is get more thin than ever. And everytime we call us eachother, we hear it immediately. And now i just called your name. I just felt you heard it, and that’s our connection. I just wanted to hear your heart beats as mine. From slow to faster than ever. I feel also the air, the new one, always more present than before around us. I close my eyes and i can see you. I can take your hand to me. And you caress my face. Slowly you whisper me the most kind word i heard from a guy. And that guy is you.
Just looking at you, i can say ‘I love you’. But i know, you know, my feelings, our own feeling we feel eachother goes on beyond that words.