Right now it’s an amazing feeling. My dancing butterflies driving crazy and i cant stop to think about you. I know for sure you feel something like my feelings. From this night i feeling you closer than ever. And your soul embracing me. I feel it so. Its like a veil, but now this veil more warmer and i know it’s your soul and heart. I know your asking yourself some questions about me. Maybe you’ve read that post where i’ve talked about myself, maybe not. But i know what it does means what he has passing. With less suffering, i had face to many legs operations, since i was born.
My first leg operation was when i was 1 year of life. They broke my feet to straighten them. Then i have had other 8 legs operations. And consequently scars (big scars), years of physioteraphy, til then last big fall, where i broke my tibia (multifractures) one year ago due an epileptic seizure (im suffering of it). In emergency room, the only images i had on my mind were these of your LongJohn and i’ve had lived the same scene of yours. When the doctor said me ‘It must be operated’, the only image i had on my mind it was yours and my tears felt down from my face. Another leg operation, i just cant believed it.
Isnt the same that he has passing, but i know what it does means. All the pain. All the work of rehabilitation and above all will strenght to goes on… And you, in my case above all for the lastest leg operation, gave me such strenght and i never stop to thank you enough for this.
Until i didnt start to write here i assure i didnt feel you. Yes, you’re far from me, i started to call you and something it begins to move my emotions. Relexad myself creating this pic, with your wonderful smile. And now i looking at you all my thought is about you. My mind is toward to you. And i wanna think you start to feel something inside of yourself, and something get in our parellel world with me
Your smile take me in your heart and it can see me what do you feel right now. As me you gettin in confusion. But we dont worry about that. Now i feel you’re a little closer to me. I would like to think, whatever you doing, for a while you thought about me.
I’m here just waiting for our closeness in our parellel world. Just waiting for you.
A dreamer and let me dream about you. Let me to dream about our parellel world and our connection among us. In someways we are linked and maybe we are not aware about our connection for real. But that thin rope does exists. And just when we call eachother we know does it exists. But til now, it was something we live in our parellel world. But maybe, we must to face up as it is in reality. You know about me. You know which i write when i thinking about you. And in someways, our lives are united. Also we are so far and we did never met eachother. But we feel eachother. When one of us call the other one, we feel it inside. And which we feel is the most great feeling we can feel. It’s like to fall in love for the first time everytime. We have our own dancing butterflies in our stomach. And which we can just do is close our eyes. To take a long breath and our soul meets eachother in a warm hug and just melting ourselves. Get in our parellel world. To smell our own skin. Towards eachother and take our hands. To whispers sweet words. Just look at eachother and just to the end to say ‘Here, we are’. And, finally, to know we are soul mates.
which i must to know about you is in your eyes, and all which you need to know about me is between these lines i’m writing to you. Neither more neither less. And which we just to know about us is that we met eachother, above all thanx to you, and in all that year, we met eachother, other times. And we know it was always a special moment. We shared few time together, but in someway, we rembember all our meeting. And now we have a bond. Just little, but we feel it and everytime we get in our parellel world becomes bigger. As now. I close my eyes, i breath so slowly to connect myself with you, and you feel me.
This year it was important to me. I had to face another leg operation, and you was so close to me. When i needed of you was so next to me. And our connection has become stronger than ever since i woke up from the operation. You was on my mind when i was wake up and i’m sure in that moment you gave me the strength i really need to goes on.
This year is about to end. But im so sure you will dont forget about me. You will let me know, in someway, which part i had in your life.
Right now is to know you’re ok. And which i really let you know is ‘how much i miss you’. To know you’re there, but i’m able to hear you close to me, and it’s a wonderful sensation for me. Maybe it’s just which i would like to feel, but i feel you so stronger than ever inside of me.
I really dont know what is, what has happenining amongs us. But i know it’s just a real fantastic emotion. And im sure you feel the same, also if you, maybe you dont rembember about me. But i’m sure you do, in our own way. I must just to wait for you.