It was a bad dream, instead, it’s the reality. Tomorrow i’ll go into the hospital to make me remove the three pins i have in the leg.
You know, i dont have fear at all, but the hospitals reminds all my childhood and everything bad things i had in my life.
Maybe you’re the only one who can understand what i’m feeling in these hours, earlier to enter in that place.
I know, that it will be a simply operation, but for me just enter in a hospital it’s like enter in a hole full of thorns and snakes and, sure it isnt a good sensantion.
In these moment im whispering your name and our connection it’s making itself slowly stronger. I know, in someway, in a strange way, we are connected, and i know you have heard my whisper.
Stay close to me in these following hours more than ever.
I’ve told you, when i woke up myself from the last operation you was in my dream. I hope to feel your closeness also this time. Stay close to me. I need of your closeness despite we are very far. Take me in Our Parallel World. Let me dream for a while.
Knew, how much you make me feel good, they would understand almost everything about me. But they are not reach to this.
Im sorry for them, because they think im crazy, as i told you.
Instead, with you there is a strong alchemy still inexplicable, but with you i can open myself freely without any prejudice and with no fear.
With you, im feel good and when i feel your closeness, like in this istants, it’s the most beautiful emotion i can feel.
If you, could read everything what im writing in this open diary, you could read, but above all, you could feel a soul that open itself in front of you. And you could perceive that, despite everything you know about me (or almost), we could be good friends or something more.
Our souls are complement eachother. Me, i know it and also you.
My heart is beating hard now, cause what im writing, i believe, is one of the most sincere open letter that i’ve wrote you till now.
And now would like feel me embraced by you…. and slowly, you’re doing.
Let me stay in you arms so.
Been enough, for me read little line of that article, i have understood what which i knew of you, already. Despite it’s just a role and i didnt see still the show, what i understood of you, it’s something that i understood, from when i saw you in the first movie i saw for a case.
Your heart is great as your soul, and i dont say it because i want say it, but just it’s the truth and i can say it, with all sincerity that im putting in this diary, if we one day, we will meet us, something of magic between us, it would make click, something that i calling Our Parallel World, without any effort, and now im not joking. You know a little bit of me. What i had faced up to and those i will face up to in a within short time, and also if, i have difficult to walk and to talk, you didnt wouldnt make me weight it, on the contrary, you would be the most sweet and careful person i would have next to me.
Im sure of that at the 100%.
I had know you for a case, but isnt a case what im knowing about you.
I love you, also for this.
Of this room, i have putted on our music and slowly i feeling you are coming and sweetly you whisper my name. I can feel it and i can feel your eyes that sweetly are set on me.
You are whispering sweet words. Just my heart can feel them. They are the most sweet words my heart had ever felt. It’s beating hard, and our connection getting itself more strong. I close my eyes and i can see our parallel world there, in front of us.
I also, feel your embrace. You wrapping me tight, as if you dont want make me escape.
I whisper you ‘I dont ever escape from you’.
In you, i have found a world made of emotions, feelings that i never felt in my life, and you… you’re the most beautiful person i ever met.
In your eyes i can see all your sweetness that i always looked for, and now you’re here, in front of me.
How could i escape from you? You mean much to me, and in your deep, you know it.
Our Parallel World is the place that we are building together and in which i want to stay when our minds are connected one another.
How much i feel you close to me in these istants…. too much.
How can i start this my open letter? Just writing Thank You for everything.
Since is began this strange connection between you and me one year ago, i feel more open to receive only beautiful sensantions and i know that they are arrive from you.
I know, you’re thinking ‘It isnt possible’, but it’s so.
I repeated it alot many times. From when i done that dream, in which you have told me what which we know, it’s been like as if a door open itself in front of me and i have felt something inside and Our Parallel World, slowly was growed up around us, and im sure, you have softly, felt it too, even you.
This year, my emotions were been opened themselves more than usual.
The few times, that you have read my replies on your tweets and you have replied, you have make me feel so close to you, and this closeness has growed up each day more til arrive today.
I dont demand a reply from you. This would be too much. But i know in someways you will read this, not today, not tomorrow, but neither in a month, but im sure you will read it.
What which i want say, amongst of these words are few Thank you for everything, you having giving me, despite we dont still know us in person… but im sure we know ourselves trought Our Parallel World, much better than in other way.
While you are thinking me. I can feel your thoughts, maybe im the only one who can understand what which you have passed and you still feeling it.
Maybe this is one thing that unites us in strong way. What i wrote i wanted say it to you from time. I wanted to say you another time how much you have helped me in these lastest years.
Now i feel you close to me. You’re watching me, i can feel you glance set on me.
I can feel you’re whispering my name and slowly our parallel world is wrapping us in of it.
In, your eyes there is a sparkle.
That sparkle that it had helped me to go foward despite all my difficulties.
I feel you’re embracing me and you’re caressing my face.
I feel you by my side more than usual. Is it possible?
I must close the eyes and take a deep breathe to dont drive crazy.
Our closeness is more profound in these istants… i can feel it and im sure you can feel it too.
You came by my side before the time, and i feel you next to me. You want say me something, when you will be ready, i will know it.
You are more sweet than usual, you’re embracing me sweetly and slowly. I feel it and you leave me without breathe, i close the eyes, sighing. My heart is beating hard. And i asking myself ‘Is it possible that is our parallel world’. I must give up myself, to these great emotions that i having and i know they are coming from you.
In someways, our parallel world get connecting us one another in another way inexpected. I shake my head, i still say myself ‘how is it possible all that it was born from a dream i’ve done one year ago and developed itself more always strong, in a intimate way during these months. What which you’ve said me in that dream it was the real reality, and then all these emotions, sensations were growing up so rapidly inside of me and they has become our parallel world, and now eachtime i feel you close to me i cant believe it, but it’s so.’
Maybe, for real, we had established a connection unconciously, and eachtime one of us, feel these emotions, these sensations inside, something happens, and it happens, by now daily, and everytime i dont feel these sensations, almost i feel lost. I need of these sensantions. They make me feel alive and i need to feel alive and you’re the only person able to give me these sensations, above all since from that dream i’ve done.
Yourself around, look at inside of you. Close your eyes and make, as i do in this istant, a deep breathe. Our parallel world getting connect us despite our real distance.
Here we can feel our feeling expand. Take my hand and look at us one another. Free our emotions and making happens what it must be happens.
I just feel your eyes set on mine, and my heart is beating hard.
At the only thought you’ve read what i’ve wrote about, only be a friend of mine, you have smiled, but i think. it was one of the most sincere reply you have ever received.
And, by now, you should know, how much i love you, and you should know how much i feel in connection with you, even if this this could be so strange.
But from the dream i’ve made almost eleven months ago, i feel a world that get connect us one another. Our parallel world.
I’m thinking you.
To write you an email, from i wrote my last part of my tale. My need to let you read this part it become important, more than the tale itself and i think i will do, even if you will doesnt read it or you will trash it. But in the life it must always to try, isnt? And i always try it and sometime i’ve succedeed to reach you
Maybe you will read this than my email, or maybe not. Who knows.
What i wrote in my last part of my tale, moved me, because i wrote what you would understand about me if you know me, for real and maybe you know me a little bit.
I will be a little crazy, but what i have in my deep, is a sincere feeling and i’ll never stop to whisper you ‘Thank you for everything you are giving me without you realizing’
My eyes and i take my usual deep breath, i can feel your hands hold me my hips from behind and your fingers slides in my shirt and slowly touch my skin.
Eacht breath i make, i feel your touch and it make me drives crazy. Your hand sliding on my bare skin with a soft touch. My head is exploding, our parallel world getting connect us eachother.
I can feel your whisper me ‘Keep your eyes closed’. I feel, you turn me around. Your scent around me. The only thing i can do is shaking. I feel you in front of me. But i have still my eyes close. I feel your protection.
Slowly you take my face in hands and now you whisper me ‘Look at me’.
Slowly, i open the eyes and those i felt till now it materialize itself in you.
I cant hold back the emotion, and some tear fall down from my face. You smile me gently.
With your finger, you dry my teardop looking at me. Your glance into mine, without say no words, you approach me.
My heart stops. I close again the eyes and i feel your lips are leaning on mine.
We kiss us. After a whisper ‘I love you’.
Our eyes dives one in another. We remain so, and slowly we disappears.